Is God watching?

All my life I was a soldier, dolzier smoker Gun holder, dutch roller. Owner of two cold a$$ shoulders. Plastic bag stuffer, Over the years I've suffered, so many snakes and snitches kinda like the last supper. I wonder where was God when my path got rougher. I struggled alone and the tribulations made me tougher. The pain made me stronger. Fake friends made wiser. Depression took me lower. Weed smoke took me higher. I was cursed since my birth I was born in a fire. My moms thought I would die so she prayed to the Messiah. "Please dont let my son expire!" 3,22,83 , the birth of me. An Aries, exactly the same as my seed. I walked a hard path. I pray she don't follow me. The thought of that alone bothers me. Is God watching me? People say probably. Sometimes I disagree, and sometimes I disbelieve in things I cant touch, taste, hear, feel or see. In all my memories I saw church infrequently. The other day a friend gave this to me. A scripture talking bout foot steps on a beach and how God carries us when our legs get weak. If thats true Lord I got something to ask of you. When the storms real bad and Im walking through. Just pass me dude. Hold my daughters hand and just guide her through. Cuz my soul is probably too far gone for you. Thats the price of a life of giving the devil his due. Im watching my daughter lord. Are you watching her too? If so... Many thanks to you. ~Esto~

The other day a friend gave this to me. A scripture talking bout foot steps on a beach and how God carries us when our legs get weak. If thats true Lord I got something to ask of you. When the storms real bad and Im walking through. Just pass me dude. Hold my daughters hand and just guide her through. Cuz my soul is probably too far gone for you. Thats the price of a life of giving the devil his due. Im watching my daughter lord. Are you watching her too? If so... Many thanks to you. ~Esto~