Im just trying to keep my head above the water/
A trifling baby mama and drama just make it harder/
I got a baby daughter, I pray that she keep her guard up/
She cry every night when me and her mama argue/
I wipe away her tears, Baby J dont have no fears/
Things gone be alright cuz ya daddy right here/
And Im, so hurt inside cuz I just told her a lie/
The future is not clear, I might not be here/
Baby mama want me to go, then she want me to stay/
Claim she trust me but dont believe what I say/
Smellin me when she hug me, If she even hug me/
She barely even speak, how can she say she love me?/
How can these thangs be lovely/ These thangs seem so ****/
But she still nudge me every night saying "f*ck me"/
And now I dont want to touch her, cuz now I dont trust her/
And we stuck in this cycle/ Why do we have to suffer?/
Its all about my past, I was a snake in the grass/
But that was years ago, I changed fast/
Now my mind is only on my family and cash/
But it seems my family isnt built to last./
Happiness, is that something I was meant to have?/
When I meet God eventually I'll have to ask/
But until then/ Ima let this pen bleed my feelings/
Smoke a blunt, lean back , stack cash to the ceiling/
For my daughter and my future children/
God willing/ Until then I guess I'll be the f*cking villain/
~Esto~
