Dear Diary,
I have to tell you about things going on
in my head
But I cant do it now, no
not yet
See, there's a reason why i'm not
emotionally strong
And why for 3 years its been hard
for me to get along
On MArch 18th, 2001 my first love
passed away
he left w/o a word
with nothing to say
but before that the baby we were supposed to have
was aborted
because we knew financially we
couldnt support it
we knew family member wouldnt let us
stay together
they would break us up thinkin it
was for the better
but now its been 3 years since the love of my life
has died
I remember last week when i sat in my
room and cried
Dear Diary,
I've been lost and confused
Because the one I'm with now makes me feel
so used
I dont understand when its me doing
everything wrong
I've been weak for so long i'm too scared
to be strong
he tries to make me happy and just to see
me smile
and i know its hard cuz i havent
smiled in forever
but im so torn on the inside
its hard me to tell what im doing
wrong or right
what can i do if im down with the
blues
or if the feelins i have for him just
arent true
diary im sorry, now i have
to go...
i have things to think about..what will i
do....
honestly i dont know.....
**ME**[img][/img]
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