welp i'll start...
i can't claim that i have reached that point in my life....on a positive note, i'd say that i am doing much better than my peers...
it seems to me my life is a daily struggle of trying to become the man that God wants me to be, which is on the other side of what's easy to me...
one of my major issues is self control...especially when it comes to temptation...i mean i read alot of books on temtation and i listen to word nightly on the radio...yeh i feel good and string directly afterwards... but sometimes when i see prey dangled right thtere in front of me, i loose my mind....it's like i haven't learned a single thing from what i've been taught...like it was all just a waste of energy....
my delima now is "am i doing what i should be doing righ now to provide a good life for my family?" and he answere to that question is i don't know...will making 14 bucks (5 years from now cause of raises) per hour at walmart be enough to support my family? will i go into a deep depression because i know that i could have been so much more...an engineer dayum you....what will be going through my mind when i have to look my daugter in the eye and tell her "i'm sorry honey, i can't afford it...", something that when i stepped foot on morehouse's campus, i promised myself i'd never would have to do that...
so i dunno....in conclusion, i'd like to say that no i am not yet a grown **** man, but i'd say i'm ahead of my peers...i feel that i am on the path to becoming a great man... 8-) (nessa)
well i just type this up really quickly so i didn't even answer my own dayum question...and i didn't even explain the part about how i'm ahead of my peers...
and this entire rant was just a second from being completely off topic... 8-) (nessa)
I agree with Demmeri. I'm not a grown man yet. Not until I have accepted all the responsibilties that come with manhood, is when I will refer to myself as grown.
I still gotta while to go and alot to learn and experience. I wouldn't say that I was ahead of my peer but I would say that I'm where my peers should be but aren't.
