****!

my cousin was **** at FAMU, and from her experiences...girl you have to talk with someone about this, someone real just NOT ONLY GOD, a phyiscal person you can cry to and hug and gain support from as welk as god!...if you dont youll just have this unbelievable hatred and emotions building up over time...i mean my cousin who is **** now...well she went into the army to deal...wrong decision because basically it taught her **** and she slept with a gun under her bed it was that intense, she didnt trust people, she was just crazy and paranoid...even though you may think you are dealing with it ok, you need to talk to a professional , a **** counselor, specifically a BLACK FEMALE **** counselor so you can relate and wont secretly feel uncomfortable with talking...a counselor's main job is to listen and guide not preach so shop around for one...but yeah dont end up like my cousin, she died an unhappy, terrified woman who lost all joy in life...you need to talk so that you can cope because you may not know it but you eventually you are gonna have issues that you are GONNA HAVE TO TALK about to deal with life....and if you want to further deal you can also join a support group for **** victims, or even visit places and talk about your experience while you are going through the healing process or after, whichever you feel comfortable, but yeah to heal yourself you may need to heal by helping others as well and gaining joy from that... ...but i know its hard for you, but you cant deal with this burden alone or else you will slowly **** yourself mentally