Its 4am and I cannot sleep .. I got someone on my mind real hard .. And its been like this for a minute .. So I decided to make a dedication post .. Everyone can come here and dedicate anything theyd like to someone special .. Dont have to say any names .. Just maybe somethin u never got a chance to say or always wanted to say but never had the courage.. They might not hear it or read it but at least u got it off ur chest which is somethin that I really need to do right now ..
Dear Prince
You are wonderful in more ways than one .. There is not a day that goes by that I am not thinking of u .. But I have to let u go now .. I dont know how or when but it must be soon .. Just know that I will never do the things she did to u .. Cuz I love u .. I wanna hurt u so much without hurting you at all .. I wanna think of u without u crossing my mind .. I wanna apologize without sayin Im sorry .. I wanna talk to u without saying one word .. And every time my phone rings I hope that its u .. I hope that one day I can pick up my ringing phone and ur beautiful name will appear .. Yes .. Its very unlikely .. But everyone has dreams right? .. And I hope one night ur dreaming of me .. Wake up missing me .. And call .. I await you .. I Love You My Prince
Im sleepy .. **** .. But I meant that damnit! .. I think? .. But just because I feel this way at this moment has nothing to do with the next .. Cuz come tomorrow .. I might be like who and the HELL wrote this bull .. Im moody and my feelings change like Jlo change **** so what shoot me :arrow:
Lil Earl....
Boy.. I love you more than words could explain... I miss u sooo much... I dont know what possessed u that day to play that joke that ended ur life... I mean December 3, 2001 will alwayz be etched in my memory... the phone call.. i mean noone can even mention ur name around me.. I dont think u realized how much ppl cared about u... So much has happened and I wanted u to be here for it...Graduation... Aniyah being born.. she is soo precious (u know Ericka alwayz talkin about u 2 her.. she know about her uncle) Nothin has been the same.. U were like a brother to me.. U affected so many ppl... "u knew no stranger" talkin 2 people on the street.. lol.. I dont even know what to say.. I'm sittin here writin this... wipin tears from my eyes... just seein ur face.. I go by ur grave at least twice a year.. would be more but u know how far away it is... Look... I love u... will alwayz love u... Just know u gettin jumped as soon as I see u in heaven...
::Sorry to whoevas reading this cuz itza lotta incomplete statements.. Yall know how it iz::
Lil Earl....
Boy.. I love you more than words could explain... I miss u sooo much... I dont know what possessed u that day to play that joke that ended ur life... I mean December 3, 2001 will alwayz be etched in my memory... the phone call.. i mean noone can even mention ur name around me.. I dont think u realized how much ppl cared about u... So much has happened and I wanted u to be here for it...Graduation... Aniyah being born.. she is soo precious (u know Ericka alwayz talkin about u 2 her.. she know about her uncle) Nothin has been the same.. U were like a brother to me.. U affected so many ppl... "u knew no stranger" talkin 2 people on the street.. lol.. I dont even know what to say.. I'm sittin here writin this... wipin tears from my eyes... just seein ur face.. I go by ur grave at least twice a year.. would be more but u know how far away it is... Look... I love u... will alwayz love u... Just know u gettin jumped as soon as I see u in heaven...
::Sorry to whoevas reading this cuz itza lotta incomplete statements.. Yall know how it iz::
Awww I actually had to wipe a tear .. What happened? .. If u dont mind sharing
^^^ He was playin a joke on his mother and accidentally hung himself...
(he would alwayz be playin dumb jokes actin younger than what he was)
Itz hurtz soo much because itz not like he intentionally committed ****..
^^^ He was playin a joke on his mother and accidentally hung himself...
(he would alwayz be playin dumb jokes actin younger than what he was)
Itz hurtz soo much because itz not like he intentionally committed ****..
This one goes out to my first love.Dear Rey,
It's been almost a year since we said those words that we knew that we would never take back because deep down both of us had too much pride to show all of the pain that we were really feeling.
July 25th was the day that we said goodbye forever. We were so in love, but since you were going away to college we had to let each other go.
Back then I was so hurt that I couldn't....or wouldn't realize just how much you meant to me.
I miss our laughs.....I miss our late night talks....I miss spending time together....I miss seeing your beautiful face everday...I just miss you.
Now that we have both moved on into seperate relationships of our own,I know that the romantic part of us is over......but I still miss our friendship...so much Rey.
If I could tell you something face to face one day it would be that I'm sorry for how I tossed you otta my life. I did want to call....I did want to give you my new number, but I didn't want to seem desperate to be in your life.
You were my first true love.....the first man that I know truly cared about me and it's a shame that we didn't stay in touch. No matter what I do, I will always remember you and love you.
I can't make the memories of "us" go away and sometimes I even dream about you. I came across a picture of you a couple of weeks ago and it brought me to tears because I know that we could've still remained friends even after our breakup.
My boyfriend knows about you, but he doesn't know that I still love you.....I guess that it's better that way.
I hope that whom ever is in your life now, appreciates you for the great "man" that you are and that no woman ever hurts you like I did (you know what I mean), because you didn't deserve all of the sh*t that I put you through.
Maybe one day I will get to tell you this face to face, but until that day I guess that's it.Toya
Dear Pooch(yeah thats his nickname!!)
I love u and theirs nothing u can do about it!! I'm sorry and salty that i gave you to my friend... but best friends is what we had to be b/c i'm afraid of rejection... and i didn't wanna lose the closet thing i have 2 a somewhat sane best friend. I've loved you since i beat you up @ the church picnic when we was 7! I love u and that Sh*t won't go away! (love & basketball!! lol) I felt that i had 2 get that off my chest so u can know how i really feel. Word of advice.... I know how u are so don't try to cheat on u know who 4 me... She's still my friend and treat her right! Just know that if she don't treat u right u know who 2 call! Luv~ya ****!
(That felt soo good! i think i can sleep in peace now!! I wish i had the balls to really say that!!)
That was the same exact thing that I was going through last year with my current boyfriend.
Friends for 12 years....same feelings of rejection...he had a girl so I left him alone....always knew I loved him though ....LOVE & BASKETBALL TYPE OF SHYYT.
After a while we realized that we belonged together and have been for seven moths now.
All I can say is just tell him how you feel.....who knows....you two may end up together .
^^^ He was playin a joke on his mother and accidentally hung himself...
(he would alwayz be playin dumb jokes actin younger than what he was)
Itz hurtz soo much because itz not like he intentionally committed ****..
