I given it once. Tried 2 give it again twice. All I recieve back is a broken heart flooded in lies. Why cry when I already knew what to expect, but wait could it be the person I love most or thought was best has now put my love to another test.
God this right here is tearing me apart, because what you said and they preach is that you judge a man by his heart. Hold on. But how? That's not what they practice. Every minute thier trying to do your job constantly judging me for sin and condemnation, who are they to tell me whether or not I have recieved salvation.
You want to know why it hurts? Because I actually allowed my heart to believe we can become one, while knowing all the while in my mind that we couldn't. and it we never for the same reasons that you presented, but because its not what you wanted, and you say different but really you showed it. I saw it in your eyes, even sometimes in your twisted lies. And I'm not bout to sit up here and front or lie I still do love you and i'm only a friend? I GUESS- i'm just a hell of a friend. This just a lesson that was taught to me thank you. It taught me that all dreams can't come true. So every night before I lay down to go to sleep I pray to GOD and say " GOD whatever meant to be, let it be. I think i'm ready for it, I guess will we shall see."
