I chose to sacrifice my life for the gamble of dice
I chose to up and leave the women whom I called my wife.
Now the tension built in my household is thick enough to slice.
And the bastard son that I left alone will never know the correct way to live his life
Treat his wife
Or how to make his money and gross it twice.
I chose this life for my family
I wanna say I dont deserve this
But it was I who chose to leave
Ignoring love when I should have been trying to preserve it.
I remember when I looked into to my sons eyes
Saying to myself this feeling is so right
At a time when everything around me felt wrong
And not even the weight I lifted physically and emotionally
could prepare me for this fight
Im weaker then I thought
But I built the perception that I was strong
As I stare at the reflection of myself
I see a man denying himself opportunity
I see a man who should be preparing himself for a life of physiological scrutiny
Yet I see a media off spring whose only objective is lust for jewelry
Oh my, Oh my, Oh my
Where has my time went?
Has it taken a first class ticket
Raved its engines
Prepared for flight?
I never forget my tears or his
I never forget that first game and all my fears
Oh how I wish my bigger me was the there
Instead he was somewhere with his boys
In a bar chugging beers
And although you fight me down I stand firm
The wicked find me guilty and the innocent find me lost
I stay. I stand firm
Wake up Mr.Walker
Your the father of a baby boy
Say high to your child
Your a FATHER