My ovewheming fear is taking over me,
my fear of being alone, trapped in a life filled with loneliness.
I play these games hoping that I'll be satisfied with that point of human compaionship,
yet each encounter is like giving a man dying of thirst salt water.
My desperate need for an intimate relationship grows,
getting in the way of my dreams of surviving, finding my own way
I can plant happiness in another garden yet my soil, somehow is poisoned, unable to fill the void in my heart.
Yet even as I write these words my soul cannot help but to search , however hopeless, for the one who shall lead me from my fear