My Life's Song
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Posted By: Ashli Dean on June 25, 2009 As I think about how my life all began I grew up watchin my mom struggle doing the best she can To care for me n my family, I was happy as can be Not knowing the real problems behind the scene Next thing I know, I'm cryin cuz my daddy leaves My mom n dad divorcing cuz he cheating Wrapped up in the corner, begging daddy to stay To take me with him if he wants to go away But no, he don't want me, so he leaves for good Why doesn't he want me?I never truly understood 3 years go by, I find myself alone n cold Being molested by my stepdad at 10 years old Scared to open my mouth n speak about the damage done to me Cuz I knew he was beating my mom so cold n deep She finally gets the strength to leave him so we move away "A new beginning at last" is what I prayed 13 years old, got saved, kept God first Not realizing I was about to endure more hurt Within a blink of an eye, I got raped I never dreamed, my treasure, somebody would take With force, with me cryin, and in pain Now tell me, do u know what it feels like to go thru rain? Well, that's not all, I've even been thru the storm The raped gave a depression n I put myself at harm Stayed in the hospital for 2 weeks long Tryna find my strength to carry on As life continued to pass my way Some people have left my life, n some have stayed At 16 years old, things finally start to look up Got a job, lovin home, God blessin me wit more than enough But then the tragic of my life hits me lower than dirt Found out my grandma was sick n I needed to go see her Saw her in the hospital bed, cherishing every moment to be Never dreamed that she would be gone from me Got a call two days later pronouncing she died Immediately my heart dropped as tears fell down from my eyes Go to her funeral about a week later As I look at the open casket, I see her Felt like she took a big chunk of my heart when she went to heaven Just wanted to die myself so I could see her again Tried to hold on to my strength as I watched my mom n brother cry My mom crying hurt me even deeper inside Two years later I thought my life was finally coming together I got engaged to someone n I thought it'd last forever Until I realize he didn't really appreciate me at all Didn't cherish me, could care less if I fall Now I'm 18 years old..I'm on my own n standing by myself But as long as I got Jesus, I don't need nobody else After all that's happened to me, I thought life's not worth living anymore But now I know what my heart is for I still struggle with my rape n so much more But I'm stronger than I ever was before What a journey for me, a tragic so long But this is who I am...this is my life's song If you enjoyed this article, Join HBCU CONNECT today for similar content and opportunities via email! |
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Ashli Dean
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Comments
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Sounds like you have a Book in you Sis...
Sunday, September 13th 2009 at 12:27AM |
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Ashli that is a powerful testimony. That just means God has a work for you girl. keep on pressing on God is not through with you yet!! I do not even know you but my prayers are with you! God Bless!
Wednesday, April 27th 2011 at 10:45PM |
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