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Candice Johnson Morris College class of 2005 This is deep. Thanks for sharing this. Monday, March 27th 2006 at 11:21PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hey Candice, I thot the same and felt would be good for discussion. I mean this shows many paradigms on how many women feel and want to see/know, it is up to women to claim or reject, some men do feel this way, this man was on the opposite side of the spectrum at one time in which many men have been here, some men get frustrated and cross back over due to various reasons, some brothers feel this way and are not given a chance and are rejected by women, this man is speaking out stating hey all brutha's are not the same, this brutha is staing hey I am here, I'm sorry, please forgive me, please I beg see, hear and feel me even taking on the wrongs or stated wrongs of others, this is from a male perspective adding in on the pains of sistahs, this man is apologizing to the children who are afflicted and the adults who still suffer from long ago but seems like yesterdays pains.... I can go a while on all what this brutha is saying who probably is the seed of a dysfunctional home, did what he knew but in conscious he was afflicted, this shows men have feelings, emotions, reap, again much is stated in his words. Also all who have wronged will not apologize but do not escape reaping and he is stating what many women say but he presents as an apology. I think for this letter to be presented on the internet in response to online dialogue with a stated Pastor that the most bitter blow off, think he does not still know where they are coming from even though how can anyone fit in shoes that only God knows all, again, much is said here. Pain also has a way of masking and exposing. Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 7:49AM

VICSKEYAS MOORE Jackson State University class of 2002 William...I like this. I got this same email maybe a month ago. It is touching that this brother thought enough about the sisters that he would write this. I know that there are good men out there and we as sisters should not carry old baggage into new relationships. A lot of times that is what we do. Zina also made a valuable point...many guys will later on realize the stupidity they were in at that point in time and will return to apologize, which is great and closure is needed for both parties. It is good that she understands not to go there again because many sisters are not strong enough to do so! Thanks so much for sharing this! It is truly a blessing!!!! Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 10:17AM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hi Zina, well I have to be honest but I am most sincere, I have my regrets but not guilt which kills, destroys, inhibits, lacks faith etc. Many Great people come from disgraces of past failures. Great to see that You have the forgiveness to accept others mess ups. I am still working on that commandment... Thanx for the share, especially the personal aspects of that. Trust me I know that is never easy... Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 11:13AM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hi Vicskeyass: Always great to see You add Your deep introspection to blogs as well as Your own. Always real and straight up. I call that a Gift as well. This is what testimony is all about and an aspect of truth God looks for, for the benefit of people that will not be fake, claim and receive. Vicskeyas, Zina, hey what I write is over the many things I have done in errors that I call dumb, I am my own hrashest critic believe it or not. Great points that You add and this dialogue is very important to what holds this world together and has an affect on getting people into heaven, RELATIONSHIPS male to female as well as dealing with our own genders. I read in the Bible last night how men are to train the younger men and women are to train the youngewr women which is soo lacking in this world. If anyone has read the sample chapter of my book, I am very honest and candid about my life. What I abhored as to the treatment of women from the 1st memories of my own mother, I eventually became, even though I held out for soo long. Peer pressure was the worst with the men teaching me and the women I knew that were older as the crockpots... Long story. As brother Ike at this site pointed out and I kind of was defensive at 1st honestly (LOL!), choices, but environments do have a major role and ebhaviors of men and women in the bible were not criticized by God up to a certain point of awareness. David and jepthah as I have stated were forced to hang with vain people and don't ever believe they did not participate in negative behaviors. God had to stop david from attacking his own Iraelite nation after David joined the Philistines. Hmmm, that is another deep paradigm.... Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 11:22AM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hey Grace! Thank you for the rime, comments etc. I notice You cover deep issues in You blogs as well. Be nice for this to continue, young folk as well as us that are a lil older (LOL!) to mix here. Knowledge knows no age or bounds but it should... We are all at where we are at and trust me when I say, I am still in learning mode and have learned even from the responses here. By the way, that was a very deep blog You wrote on "Age Ain't Nothing But A Number". Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 11:24AM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 BY THE WAY, I AM GOING TO GET VERY REAL AND HONEST ABOUT THE 1 FROM COLLEGE THAT I DID SOO WRONG. ASK ME KNOW QUESTIONS I TELL KNOW LIES. IT HAS TAKEN ME YEARS FROM THAT TIME TO COME CLEAN IN WHICH FOR HER SAKE(LONG STORY), I COULD NOT TELL HER ABOUT THE CHEATING, ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER THINGS I DID WRONG OUT OF INSTINCT BUT NEVER RIGHT(AGAIN LONG STORY). LET THE CARDS FALL WHERE THEY MAY, I CAN HANDLE IT NOW AND I KNOW FOR MY NEXT BIG STEP IN WHAT I DESIRE FOR MY FUTURE I HAVE TO COME CLEAN. I SEE MANY COMMENTS THAT BROTHERS HERE MAKE LIKE THE ONE THAT STATED ABOUT RATHER TO FORNICATE THAN TO WAIT. NOT TRYING TO PUT THE BRUTHA OUT THERE AND WHO AM I TO TALK. BUT I HAVE LEARNED A LOT SINCE THAN AND WHEN I DWELL ON ALL WHAT I HAVE DEALT WITH AND HAVE DONE AND ONLY HAVE REGRETS.... I SHOULD HAVE CAUGHT MANY THINGS, SHOULD BE DEAD AND TO NEVER HAVE CAUGHT ANYTHING... NOT A BRAG, JUST THE GOD HONEST TRUTH, THIS IS THE GRACE, LOGSUFFERING AND MERCY I HAVE RECEIVED, BUT MORE THAN THE AVERAGE PERSON... TODAY I FINALLY COMMENTED ON BLOGS IN REFERENCE TO STD'S. I DID NOT SIGN BEFORE USUALLY BECAUSE OF GUILT. BUT IF I CAN USE THE NEGATIVES TO CREATE POSITIVE FOR THOSE THAT WILL CLAIM AND RECEIVE, IF I CAN BUST OUT ALL THOSE LIARS OUT THERE THE ONES WHO TALK ABOUT BEING CAREFUL, BUT.... A WHOLE LOT OF BABIES, DOWN LOWS AND STD'S ARE BEING SPREAD BY THE BIGGEST DECEPTORS OUT THERE, THE ONES THAT SEEM TO PULL THE MOST AS I ONCE DID, BUT... I HAVE TO GO ON FAITH AND KNOW WHAT GOD HAS FOR ME, WILL OVER LOOK MY PAST AS RAHAB WAS DONE. SHE WAS A MOST BRILLIANT WOMAN OF VIRTUE AND THE EPITOME OF PROVERBS 31:10-31 TO EVEN BE MENTIONED IN THE HALL MARK OF FAITH IN HEBREWS 11.................. ANYWAY Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 11:39AM

Tymekia Troy Askew Elizabeth City State University class of 1992 What a great way for a man to apologize. I agree that some men have treated women this way...of course not all. It does cause a woman to put up a defense to men when they are treated as such. Hopefully they will learn from that experience and not blame all men for one man's mistakes. Apology accepted black man. To the men...always treat women the way you would want your daughter to be treated by her man. Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 11:47AM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hi Ms. Tymekia, pleasure to make Your acquaintance and even more so Your time and wisdom to this blog. I relate to where You are coming from. There are men with defenses up, I can count that as a apart of my reasons for not allowing enough of me to open up in reference to signifiacant relationship/relationships that were worth it. I tended to rebel even more so as a person got to me for reasons I still dwell on. I agree with You 100% about the points You make Sis. Hey a friendship offer and GBook sign are coming Your way! Just me being me Sis. Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 11:59AM

Maria Dade Reams Florida A&M University class of 1990 I've been blessed enough to be able to say that I have a very good Black man. But I could've missed him because my gaurd was up. Men would hit it and run and that was done. Fortunately when God sent this one my way twenty years ago he also moved my heart to tear down that wall, break that glass ceiling, and open that door. Apology accepted Black man and welcome home. I love you. Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 1:49PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hi Maria, appreciate the sharing of the knowledge that You have added here valuably because You have lived it. I also appreciate the realness and being straight up in which people relate the most to. To present self at too high of a level for people to reach in aspirations of perfection does not work. This is what Jesus was alluding to in calling Pharasees, "White washed tombs". Great message for brothers out there who are/say they are sorry. Like the song "I'm Every Woman" by Chaka and later by Whitney, I see this brutha as apologizing and being every man. As I stated this was a deep email I received with a ton of paradigms. Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 2:32PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hey Renee, appreciate the time and comments as well as the knowledge You present. I did not think of that angle and great point Uou add about what about those brutha's that have wronged for real, don't care and do not apologize. I know they have to reap on earth and in Heaven because God does not forgive what we do not profess in sincerity that the individual does not make via choice. I hope I clarify that point and I have to think about that. Does God forgive if one does not accept what has been done wrong if the individual stops. Casae in point, a man that starts a whole nutha family. A woman can not easily do that if You feel me. Does the man still reap if he takes care of the next family? I just answered that question... The Bible states a family that a man does not take care of is worse than an infidel or non believer. Also sin has to play itself out. I have not had what I had since college, not that I have not tried and I am still single. I know part of that is dealing with self, but I have not been as Blessed and I think like david, even though something like 70,000 people were killed due to david stealing Uriah's wife and having one of his best loyal soldiers killed, that sin went throughout his generations. Funny how David asked for certain people who had wronged him children to die to the 3rd and 4th generations... I still have much to learn Sis. I wish I could grant you that wish Renee, but society... New Testament states men will continue to grow worse and fewer(summing up that scripture. Yes there are sistah's that have wronged also. Guess that's the what came 1st question, the chicken or the egg. I say the chicken. There is scripture I have to admit in the Old Testament where the women were not faulted due to what they had learned and dealt with from men. FORGIVENESS IS A BIGGY FOR MANY, IT IS FOR ME. Just being honest and real. Take care Renee, as I have stated before respectfully and commending You, You do keep me on my toes. Take care. Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 4:49PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Oh I have to add for the healing and the coming together in unity, male/female dialogue is essential at least for those who seek to get it right. Value of opinions, no vanity talk, well-meaning, individual knowledge and wisdom (We all have valued 2cents), from a purely spiritual base(by the way, I do not condone a curse word but they are out there and 99.9% of people have used and we are all at where we are at); Again I can go all day on this subject. I wonder if this brutha realizes how deep this letter is that seems to come straight from hearts of sorrows. By the way, I feel the same way and if I had to write a letter, I could write one no better. Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 4:53PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 BY THE WAY, I AM GOING TO GET VERY REAL AND HONEST ABOUT THE 1 FROM COLLEGE THAT I DID SOO WRONG. ASK ME NO QUESTIONS I TELL NO LIES. IT HAS TAKEN ME YEARS FROM THAT TIME TO COME CLEAN IN WHICH FOR HER SAKE(LONG STORY), I COULD NOT TELL HER ABOUT THE CHEATING, ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER THINGS I DID WRONG OUT OF INSTINCT BUT NEVER RIGHT(AGAIN LONG STORY). LET THE CARDS FALL WHERE THEY MAY, I CAN HANDLE IT NOW AND I KNOW FOR MY NEXT BIG STEP IN WHAT I DESIRE FOR MY FUTURE I HAVE TO COME CLEAN. I SEE MANY COMMENTS THAT BROTHERS HERE MAKE LIKE THE ONE THAT STATED ABOUT RATHER TO FORNICATE THAN TO WAIT. NOT TRYING TO PUT THE BRUTHA OUT THERE AND WHO AM I TO TALK. BUT I HAVE LEARNED A LOT SINCE THAN AND WHEN I DWELL ON ALL WHAT I HAVE DEALT WITH AND HAVE DONE AND ONLY HAVE REGRETS.... I SHOULD HAVE CAUGHT MANY THINGS, SHOULD BE DEAD AND TO NEVER HAVE CAUGHT ANYTHING... NOT A BRAG, JUST THE GOD HONEST TRUTH, THIS IS THE GRACE, LOGSUFFERING AND MERCY I HAVE RECEIVED, BUT MORE THAN THE AVERAGE PERSON... TODAY I FINALLY COMMENTED ON BLOGS IN REFERENCE TO STD'S. I DID NOT SIGN BEFORE USUALLY BECAUSE OF GUILT. BUT IF I CAN USE THE NEGATIVES TO CREATE POSITIVE FOR THOSE THAT WILL CLAIM AND RECEIVE, IF I CAN BUST OUT ALL THOSE LIARS OUT THERE THE ONES WHO TALK ABOUT BEING CAREFUL, BUT.... A WHOLE LOT OF BABIES, DOWN LOWS AND STD'S ARE BEING SPREAD BY THE BIGGEST DECEPTORS OUT THERE, THE ONES THAT SEEM TO PULL THE MOST AS I ONCE DID, BUT... I HAVE TO GO ON FAITH AND KNOW WHAT GOD HAS FOR ME, WILL OVER LOOK MY PAST AS RAHAB WAS DONE. SHE WAS A MOST BRILLIANT WOMAN OF VIRTUE AND THE EPITOME OF PROVERBS 31:10-31 TO EVEN BE MENTIONED IN THE HALL MARK OF FAITH IN HEBREWS 11.................. ANYWAY Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 6:45PM

Isaac A. Artis, III Hampton University class of 1997 Donthatehimgirl.com now thats funny im gonna have to check that one out. Is the apology enough? Of course not Faith without works is dead. There has to be , in my opinion, some reciprocity for us all to be on even ground. I think we have for to long been looking for whats wrong with each other as opposed to whats right. I know its not always easy to forget, especialy when you have wronged, but the thats the only way we as a people can move on and move on up. Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 6:57PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hi Avia, wow... Another Young Woman as Renee and all the rest that keep me on my toes... Avia I treasure friendship, yes I did the most wrong to the one that was most for me +100%. I can still beat myself for that one, she has moved on years ago, had her wedding in Jet magazine and I did not know until the same fellas that I was proving a point to, the ones who would call me and I would run like an Jack... to catch up with, the ones where they met their wives through me but did not invite me to their weddings and their wives do not like me because I was the fellas excuses to get out, hey blame Will, I was to his crib or they used my car and I switched with them because I was showing I could give a darn... The same fellas even today if I see them, males and females ask me, You were soo stupid, how did You let that one get away, or the female friends I have that state I have to always be a dog because if I let something get away like that... How can You top that or Uncles at Church back home that state after Church as I grew and really changed with flaws and residue left, You won't ever get anything like that again..." I beloive the devil is involved with stuff like that to try to always make me remember and at times regularly I would dream and when I played around afterwards, nothing was enough... At times sitting with the fellas listening, drinking at the time and listening to music, we over to my boy Charles house former County Commissioner and I started out hanging with him and his older group to be accpeted and I had looked up to for so many years, as a matter of fact I started out my 1st time for anything with them after Jo the girl I came home from Germany to marry had hickeys on her neck. I was under a lot of pressure. Bradenton and palmetto were at war with each other, connecting towns. The chief rival was Daryl along the same lines as WestSide story. My cousin Dre was going with her older sister and Jo who told me she was 17, but I found out had turned 16 (She saw me at the skating rink, told some guys, I did not know her and she intimidated me by her looks and her mother fell in love with me calling me son-n=law). I remember when I was forced to go in the Army how Jo cried and my boy T who took me over there took the picture of us kissing the night before I was to go to the duty station, I was 18 and strong enough not to cry in front of her, was not a crier but I broke down in T's car. I had been out of my last foster home roughly a year and a half, my grandafather had passed and I was staying with 3 promiscuous sisters, their mother who kept coming at me who died of HIV and Bob, Leroy, and Amp. Leroy is in prison for life for killing a dude with a crowbar, Bob is a drugee, amp a crackhead and thin but was once muscular and Amp broke the 3strikes rule and is in prison for life. The female I mention in the 1st pasrt of my book was the oldest sister. They smoked weed and drank beer daily, where I got started. I had no where else to go... Long story. Tabitha the one that would appear on the rap record of the dude who played Pro ball for the Steelers, the girl I could have slept with but cried as I was to be the 1st one and so I did not go through with it since I would marry her anyway, well, eventually if a dude got out of jail, well lets just say I was over there with a partner of mine and the dude came out of her house like the rest of the neighborhood did and she tried to come at me wanting me years later and of course that was a big NONO for me. So here is Jo, if one has been on the streets and those bad foster homes I was in, Jo was a family and the one I so needed at that naive time in my life. So here are the fellas and Phyllis the dark skinned girl I had such a big crush on while working at Biscuits restaurant, the girl whose age was older than I and I was at the age where You hit the girl in the back and run and she comes and knocks You out, the one that was at the age to be engaged and I envied the dude. I lfet Jo's house and met the fellas at the motorcycle club, 1st time hanging like that, I was torn up, devastated. life was no more and all the Antoinne Fisher movie stuff I dealt with in the Army, well I swore revenge and to get them All back. So the car my cousin I so admired and that all the girls had crushes on, the cousin while I am at a different HighSchool, girls would talk about Rick who is in his 40's now, still well built and still looks in his 20's seriously that girls younger than his daughter go after him and he ignores out of respect, the cousin when the girls would talk about Rick to build my self-esteem while I wore raggedy sweat pants to school 1 X per week due to only 4-5 pairs of pants, I would say, Slick and Dre are my cousins... They still igged me... So Phyllis consoles, hugs and cuddles me, 1st time with a girl older, we got in the car and well at the beach that was my 1st... Oh I have much more and prayerfully I am clarifying why I was me Avia. The women in my family told me like the analogy in my family of my grandfathers brother, their mother who had a visit from another mother informing her that her daughter was pregnant and grandma Woodie told her that, "WHEN I LET MY BULLS OUT TO PASTURE, YOU NEED TO KEEP YOUR HEFFERS IN THE HOUSE". THIS WAS FROM THE WOMEN AND THE WOMEN THAT WERE MARRIED TO MY UNCLES STATING THE WELL HEARD QUOTE, "A MAN IS GOING TO PLAY AROUND AS LONG AS HE PAYS THE BILLS AND TAKES CARE OF THE HOUSE..." AT CHURCH THESE UNCLES WOULD TALK ABOUT THE NEGATIVE WORD FOR A FEMALE BODY PART RESPECTFULLY. I WAS 7 AND THIS WAS THROUGHOUT MY LIFE. SO NOW I AM THE NEXT GENERATION UNDER MY OLDER COUSINS AND NOW GUYS WANT TO HANG WITH ME AND GIRLS THINK I'M KEWL AND MY STYLE OF CLOTHES CHANGES, HAIRCUT... I GREW INTO AND BECAME COMFORTABLE BUT THAT SCENE I MENTION ABOUT THE s*xUAL ABUSE I SAW OF THE GIRLS RANGS IN MY HEAD AND SO I DRINK, SMOKE ETC. TO PACIFY IT AND THEN I LEARN HOW TO DFANCE AFTER THE 1ST TIME I DANCED WHEN I WAS ALLOWED TO STAY OUT PAST 12 RIDICULED ME THAT I COULD NOT DANCE AFTER I THOUGHT I WAS DOING SO GOOD. EVER SEEN THE QUEEN LATIFA MOVIE WITH THAT WHITE COMEDIAN WHO COULD NOT DANCE? LOL, GET THE PICTURE? I WAS ALWAYS VERY DETERMINED AND HEAD STRONG AND WHAT FOLK SAID I COULD NOT DO I STUDIED LIKE I LEARNED ALL ABOUT WOMEN, AND IYANA VANZANT AND THE YOUNG AND THE RESTLESS AND THEIR BIOLOGY ETC. THEN I TOOK IT TO ANOTHER LEVEL WITH WHAT I REALIZE IS PSYCHOLOGY LONG STORY. LETS JUST SAY I LEARNED FROM INTENSE STUDY BUT FOR ALL THE WRONG REASONS. NOW HERE GOES I PRAY ONE DAY IN MY ROOM AT FAMU AND KB COMES IMMEDIATELY IN AND TELLS ME ABOUT THIS GORGEOUS GIRL OF A FRIEND OF HIS. WE GO OVER TO HER HOUSE AND THE WORDS OF ADAM OF EVE RING IN MY HEAD. MENA ASKS ME WHAT I LIKE TO DO AND I TOLD HER I LOVE THE WEATHER CHANNEL. I WAS SOO NERVOUS. TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT, MENA HUGGED ME FROM BEHIND 3 MONTHS LATER AND I WAS IN SHCOK A GIRL LIKE THIS HUGGED ME? SHE GRADUATED WITH A PHARMACY DEGREE, I HAD POLISCI/PSYCH MEANING NO JOB, SHE TAKES ME TO SOUTH MIAMI BEACH, BUYS ME A NEW CAR SO I CAN DRIVE TO ORLANDO FROM BRADENTON WHERE I SUGGESTED SHE MOVE IN ORDER TO BE CLOSE TO ANYWHERE A LAWSCHOOL I WAS ADMITTED TO IN FLA. BEFORE SHE BOUGHT THAT CAR, SHE POPPED OUT 2 GRAND FOR A TIME SHARE AT SOUTH MIAMI BEACH A PLACE FOR US TO HAVE ROMANTIC TIMES TOGETHER, THE ONE THAT HAD ME LIVING OUT BY THE BEACH IN A SAFE PLACE, HID CASH ALL OVER THE APARTMENT AND WHEN I FEARED RENT WAS OVERDUE WOULD KNOW I WAS FULL OF PRIDE AND TELL ME WHERE TO FIND IT. THE ONE WHO WOULD GIVE ME HER CAR IN ORLANDO TO DRIVE BACK AND FORTH TO BRADENTON, THE ONE I STAYED OUT ALL NIGHT LONG WITH 2 STRIPPERS I IMPRESSED THE NEW GUY FRANK WITH ANOTHER ONE THAT GOT MARRIED AND KICKED ME TO THE CURB WHO CAME OVER TO HIS HOUSE TO PROTECT HIM WHILE THE GIRLS EX BOYFRIEND WHO COMMITTED SUICIDE DROVE PRIOR TO HI APARTMENT, I HAD HIS BACK AND SAT OUTSIDE TO TAKE CARE OF HIM, HE BACKED OFF... I CAME HOME ABOUT 8 A.M. AND STARTED A BIG ARGUMENT WITH HER AS SHE HAD CALLED ALL MY FAMILY THAT PAST NIGHT WONDERING IF I WERE DEAD. I TOLD HER I WAS DRUNK AND FELL TO SLEEP AT FRANKS HOUSE AND THIS IN FRONT OF THE AUNT THAT WAS THE ONLY ONE FOR ME WHILE THE REST OF THE FAMILY PUT ME IN THAT JOSEPHS PIT I.E. FORCED ME TO GO TO THE ARMY. MY FAMILY AND YOUNGER FAMILY LOVED HER. IRONICALLY I BOUGHT HER HER FIRST EXPENSIVE BIG AFRICAN BIBLE FOR CHRISTMAS AND AS SHE TOLD ME "NO" THAT MORNING BEFORE I WAS TO DRIVE BACK TO BRADENTON AFTER THAT WAS OUR TRADITION BEFORE I WENT BACK HOME AFTER HANGING OUT ALL WEEKEND WITH MY BROTHER WHO LIVED IN O-TOWN THAT GRADUATED FROM BETHUNE... MY PRIDE DID NOT LET ME CALL HER FOR A MONTH AS I LEFT HER WITH TEARS IN HER EYES, TEARS OF PURE AGAPE LOVE... I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM TELLING YOU ALL THIS, I KNOW I HAVE TO IN ORDER TO ANSWER YOU. IT JUST HIT ME AS I JUST CAME IN FROM GETTING SOMETHING TO EAT WITH ONE OF MY BOYZ LIKE A LOUD THOUGHT, I DID WHAT I DID BECAUSE I WAS TRYING TO PROVE A POINT... GOD FORGIVES AND BURIES IN THE DEPTHS OF THE SEA FOR US NOT TO GO AND GET IT AGAIN... PEOPLE REMEMBER AND BELIEVE ME I HAVE THE DARNEST TIME NOT HOLDING GRUDGES AND NOT FORGIVING. I KEEP IN CONTACT WITH HER AUNT THAT SHE WANTED ME TO ASK HER TO MARRY HER IN FRONT OF, SOMETHING ALL HER FAMILY WANTED SO BADLY FOR US AND HAD ME GIVE HER GRADUATION SPEECH AT THER PHARMACY GRADUATION... I TALKED WITH HER AUNT AFTER YEARS OUT OF RESPECT BECAUSE OF HER MARRIAGE AND HER AUNT TOLD ME MENA SAID HEY AND THAT IT WAS NOT HER FAULT THAT WE DID NOT GET MARRIED. THE FAMILY HAD FAULTED HER. I WAS TOO GOOD, BUT I WAS A LOW DOWN DIRTY DAWG... I TOLD HER AUNT AND TOLD HER AUNT TO TELL HER FAMILY IT WAS ALL MY FAULT, THAT THE ONLY THING MENA DID WRONG WAS THAT SHE WAS PERFECT. THE SAME FAMILY WHERE I ATE WHAT I THOUGHT WAS A BIG STEAK AND THAT WAS A PORKCHOP THAT COVERED THE PLATE, AND THOSE HUGE HOMEMADE BISCUIT IN A RURAL TOWN NOT ON THE MAP OF ALABAMA NAMED LETOHATCHEE. ONLY DIRT ROADS, PONDS, ONLY FAMILY CAN LIVE THERE WHERE HER FATHER IS BURIED AND THE REASON WHY SHE WANTED ME TO ASK HER FOR HER HAND IN MARRIAGE IN FRONT OF HER AUNT AND I REFUSED AND WHILE OON THE WAY BACK TO FLA I TOLD MENA, "I DO NOT KNOW IF I EVER WANT TO GET MARRIED", BECAUSE MY COUSIN ROD TOLD ME AND HE WAS OR EVENTUALLY CHEATED ON HIS WIFE THAT HE MARRIED WHEN SHE WAS A VIRGIN WHEN SHE WAS 24. PROVING A POINT........ SO I HAVE A 39TH BIRTHDAY AND SIT OUT BACK TO MYSELF WITH THE DOG AND NATURE SOO BEAUTIFUL AND SPEAKING TO ME TELLING ME, "YOU SHOULD BE SHARING THIS WITH YOUR WIFE AND CHILDREN ADORING YOU AND YOUR WIFE THAT YOU ALWAYS WANT THAT BIT=RTHDAY TREAT FROM ON YOUR BIRTHDAY NIGHT ON THE TRADITIONAL TIME YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AT 3:32 A.M. WHEN YOU WERE BORN... MY CHILDREN TO BRING DADDY PRSENTS AND HER THAT WAS ALWAYS SO LOVING AND AFFECTIONATE THAT ALWAYS HAD TO TOUCH OR HOLD MY HAND EVEN WHEN I WAS RUDE AND NASTY AND WOULD TELL HER TO STOPPPPPP, UNTIL I WANTED... AND SHE DID THAT TO HOLD ON TO ME. SHE WAS AN AWESOME GIRL. I TELL YOU THIS AS TRUTH, REALNESS, STRAIGHT UP, YES MEN REAP, WE GET SORRY AND WE DO CRY BY OURSELVES AT TIMES LIKE THE MICHAEL BAISDEB BOOK "MEN CRY IN THE DARK", JUST THAT I DID THAT YEARS AGO THROUGH THE FIGHTS, DRINKING ETC. SHE WAS THERE I FOUGHT THE POLICE AND WAS SO SCARRED SHE CRIED AND CAME TO ME IN THAT DARK COLD JAIL CELL TO MAKE SURE THE POLICE WOULD NOT HARM ME AND CRYING ASKED ME, "WHY WILLIAM, WHY DID YOU DO IT, THE HAD LET YOU GO AND YOU WENT BACK ACROSS THE STREET AGAINST THE GRAIN OF THE FELLAS...?" I DID IT TO PROVE A POINT OF LOYALTY TO THE SAME FELLAS THAT LET ME FIGHT BY MYSELF WHEN I GOT MY JAW BROKEN... WHEN HER AUNT TOLD ME MENA SAID HI AND WITH HER STATEMENT "IT WAS NOT HER FAULT AND THAT SHE ALWAYS KNEW HER FAMILY LOVED ME AND DID NOT LIKE HIM". I KNEW THAT SHE HAD STILL HER, LOVE DOES NOT DIE BUT CHANGES CONTEXT, THAT I HURT HER MORE THAN I COULD EVER REALIZE, I COULD HAVE COST HER LIFE IN MY SELFISHNESS OF SNEAKING AROUND AND CONTRARY TO ALL THOSE LIES OUT THERE, MOST MEN DO NOT PROTECT THEMSELVES... I LOVED HER AND I DID NOT LOVE HER BECAUSE I HAD NEVER RECEIVED IT AND I WAS SCARRED TO LEARN HOW AND THOSE 1ST RELATIONSHIPS HID WHAT I KNOW NOW IS LOVE THAT IS NEVER TO YOUNG FOR WE CAME FROM LOVE WITH GOD AND WERE HIS DAILY DELIGHT BEFORE THE WORLD BEGAN... I HAVE A SAYING I LEARNED FROM MY DOG THAT THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A "HUMAN BEING" AND A "HUMAN DOING". NO ONE COULD TOUCH HER AND WHEN I THOUGHT SHE WAS TOUCHED I WALKED UP TO 2 BIG DUDES AND ONE DUDE MY HEIGHT AT THE MOON THE POPULAT CLUB IN TALLAHASSEE, SHE DID NOT WANT ME TO KNOW AND I PULLED HER ALONG WITH ME AND STEPPED TO HIM IN THE MIDDLE OF THEM AND THEY APOLOGIZED. I LOOKED OUT FOR HER, TOOK CAR OF THE CAR, MOVED ALL HER STUFF TO ORLANDO(ESPECIALLY TO SHOW OFF MACHOSM THAT PROVING POINT THING AGAIN), I DID ALL THAT AND THE ROMANCE THINGS. BUT THAT WAS A ROBOT AND ALL SHE WANTED WAS MY LOVE BECAUSE AS A FEMALE FRIEND TOLD ME YEARS AGO, "MENA LOVED AND BELIEVED IN YOU ENOUGH AND DEFENDED YOU AGAINST ALL THE NEGATIVES THAT FAMILY WOULD SAY(LIKE A OLDER COUSIN BEVERLY AND OTHERS THAT WOULD TALK ABOUT ME EVEN AT CHURCH AS TO TRY TO GET HER TO SEE I WAS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HER BECAUSE I KNOW NOW THEY ARE ONLY GOOD ENOUGH FOR SELVES BY PUTTING DOWN OTHERS), THAT MENA AS MYA STATED KNEW I WOULD HIT IT BIG AND SIT HER DOWN... YOU SEE THE ONLY REASON MENA TOOK MY CRAP ETC. FOR 3 YEARS WAS HER DREAM TO MARRY ME AND GIVE ME A SON AND HAVE HER A MENA JR. MENA TO THIS DAY HAS NO CHILDREN. THE DUDE SHE MARRIED THAT WHEN I FOUND OUT AND STATED, "HE AIN'T IN MY LEAGUE", WELL HE WAS A PHARMACIST AND I TOLD HER AND.. OH AND SHE ADDED HE IS A LAWYER TO. AND I SAID URRRPPPPP. HE WAS COINCIDENTALLY 39 THE SAME AGE AS ME AND I CALLED HIM OLD AND MENA WAS 25 OR 26 WHEN SHE MARRIED HIM MAYBE 2 MONTHS AFTER I LEFT HER CRYING BECAUSE SHE TOLD ME NO THAT MORNING. THE BIBLE I BOUGHT HER, HER 1ST, WAS THE GOD SHE NEEDED, THE GOD THAT USED ME TO MAKE HER LET ME GO AND EVEN THEN DURING A PRAYER GROUP OF THE MEN AT MY APARTMENT WHILE SEARCHING FOR RELIGION WE PRAYED AND SHE CALLED OUT THE CLEAR BLUE SKY. HER COUSIN CHRIS HER FAVORITE AHD BEEN KILLED IN COLLEGE AND SHE CALLED ME CRYING. MY COUSIN BURNADETTE TRIED TO GET ME TO GO TO ALABAMA AND BE THERE AT THE FUNERAL EVEN THOUGH MENA WAS ENGAGED TO BE MARRIED. MY EGO SAID NO, MY HEART... EGO WON. IT WOULD BE YEARS LATER THAT I REALIZED GOD HAD ANSWERED OUR PRAYERS AND IF I WOULD HAVE WENT TO THAT FUNERAL, I WOULD HAVE HAD HER BACK, ESPECIALLY AROUND ALL HER FAMILY AND HER MOTHER THAT FLEW IN FROM CALIFORNIA. YOU SEE SHE HAD NOT TOLD HER FIANCEE. MENA HAD CALLED ME... AVIA, THERE IS MUCH TO ME MANY DO NOT KNOW AND I WRITE TO GET IT OUT WHAT I HAVE MOVED FORWARD PAST. I AM MEANT TO BE A GO-GETTER AND I CAN'T KEEP LETTING LIFE PASS ME BY. I WANT WHAT IS MINE HERE ON EARTH RIGHT NOW WHICH IS TRANSFERRED INTO HEAVEN AFTER I DIE BUT STORED THERE IN DUPLICATE AT THE SAME TIME PRESENTLY BUT AMPLIFIED BEYOND MY WILDEST DREAMS. I READ LAST NIGHT IN REVELATIONS ABOUT THE BIRDS UP THERE AND MY LOVE FOR NATURE. WOW OK, ROUND ONE TO YOU, "dontdatehimgirl.com " NEVER HEARD OF THAT ONE, LOL, DEEP NAME........... BUT ROUND 2 GOES TO ME, "YOU STILL LOVE HIM AND ALWAYS WILL AND I COMMEND AND UNDERSTAND THAT ACCORDING TO WHAT TRUE LOVE IS, SONG OF SOLOMON 8:6-7, MY MINISTER BACK HOME AND COUSIN ROD HAD ME MEMORIZE THAT AND READ THE BOOK, "FIRE IN THE BELLY" BY SAM KEEN. I ASKED ROD AND GOD WHAT IS LOVE AND REALIZED I KNEW NOTHING ABOUT IT AFTER THE LOSS OF MENA. A MOVIE I SAW BY TOM HANKS LOST AT SEA WHO WHEN FOUND YEARS LATER FOUND OUT HIS BELOVED WIFE HAD MARRIED AFTER THINKING HIM DEAD. SHE WAS COMPELLED TO LEAVE HER HUSBAND AND HER LIFE BEHIND AND FROM WHAT TOM HANKS HAD LEARNED FROM THE TALKS WITH THAT VOLLY BALL HE DREW A FACE ON, THE VOLLY BALL THAT WAS LOST AT SEA AS HE FINALLY LEFT THAT ISLAND AND HE CRIED AND I UNDERSTOOD WHY, THE TOM HANKS WHO LOVED HER DEARLY BUT TOLD HER, "I LOVE YOU", I CAN'T TAKE YOU AWAY FROM WHAT IS, I AM SORRY THAT I LOST YOU BUT I AM HAPPY FOR THE TIME I HAD YOU". A TEST QUESTION I HAVE ASKED IN CONSIDERATION FOR A SIGNIFICANT RELATIONSHIP IS IF SHE IS STILL IN LOVE WITH HER EX. IF ANSWER "NO", I KNOW SHE DOES NOT KNOW WHAT TRUE LOVE IS. IF YES, I KNOW THERE IS A SHOT OF MAKING IT. MY LAST EX WHEN I ASKED HER THAT QUESTION TOLD ME SHE DID NOT LOVE HIM ANYMORE.... AND WAS THE MOST VEHEMENT ABOUT THAT, BUT DOGGED ME OUT THE HARDEST, WHY? NOT THAT I HAD BEEN CHEATED ON ANYWORSE THAN TABITHA OR FLYING HOME FROM GERMANY AT THE TORMENT OF OLDER SERGEANTS CALLING ME SWEET BUT I MATURED AND ENDED UP HAVING THEM HANGING WITH ME AND CHALLENGING THEM WHEN I GOT BACK TO GERMANY AND DOING STEROIDS X 2 AND WORKING OUT DETERMINED FANATICALLY TO BULK UP FROM 128 TO MATCH THEIR MANSTRENGTH OVER MY BOTSTRENGTH WHERE I TELL YOUNGER KATS THERE IS A DIFFERENCE. IT WAS JUST THAT I HAD MELLOWED AND MATURED AND LET THE DEFENCES DOWN AND LET HER INWARD WHILE SHE NEVER LET ME INWARD, I WAS FOOLED BY THE ROMANCE AND WORDS FEEL ME? wELL I HAVE WRITTEN A CHAPTER IN A BOOK WHILE IN THIS ZONE TO ANSWER YOU AND DARN IF SOMEONE DID NOT TAKE ME UP ON WHAT I STATED ABOUT "ASK ME KNOW QUESTIONS AND I TELL YOU NO LIES", (^;^) FORGIVENESS AS THE SCRIPTURES STATE ABOUT COALS ON HEADS... IS PAIN FOR THE ONE FORGIVEN. LAST TIME I TALKED WITH HER AUNT TO CHECK UP ON HER THAT IS ELDERLY AND SICK BUT SO MOTHERLY TO ME, WAS MENA AND HER HUSBAND HAD JUST MOVED INTO A HUGE BEAUTIFUL HOUSE IN ORLANDO... NO I DID NOT ASK. BUT I DO PRAY EVERYDAY MULTIPLE TIMES FOR THE SAME CHANCE THAT SAMSON WAS GIVEN IN HIS PLEA AND THE BIBLE PART THAT ALWAYS TOUCHES ME, "AND HIS HAIR BEGAN TO GROW AGAIN". THE STRENGTH WAS NEVER IN THE HAIR, BUT WAS GIVEN TO ALL THE WRONG WOMEN WHO COULD NEVER MAKE THE STRONGEST MAN EVER IN THE BIBLE DO ANYTHING.... CHOICE. I HAVE ANSWERED/NEGATED MY DEFENSES TO WHAT IKE STATED IN MY BLOG ON CHIVALRY... WOW.............................. ENOUGH FOR NOW...... Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 8:14PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Brother Ike that is such a deep statement of truth, knowledge and awareness that I will let that one stand by itself. what else can I add. I just got through with a reply by the way, we finished at the same time I ended my reply with choice. Yes You were right and I was wrong Bro..... Man enough to admit that, I guess that shows growth and maturity but Proverbs states let another state things about You in accomplishments. God is saying that is when one really knows. Others see/know it, the ones that are for You. Thanx Ike, told You, You have a "Gift" Bro. You have lived and done it. We both came from similar and I chose my path and You chose Yours but if God is the same yesterday, today and forever.......................... Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 8:19PM

Tiara J Grambling State University class of 2004 that was deep. And I can see both sides. One part of me says that his appology was needed and another part of mt says that a man will only do what you allow his to. So i think that it is both parties involved that need to take a look at what they want out of the relationship. And sometimes it is a wonam who has to appologize for her wrong doings so in the end one one is perfect and we all need to say sorry for something. Tuesday, March 28th 2006 at 11:08PM

Kalynne Etheridge Huston-Tillotson University class of 2010 I like that poem...it was deep. It kind of makes you think back on old flames and past relationships. I could relate to a lot of it, and I'm still in high school. I've had it happen to me a couple of times...One I took back and nothing changed so I didn't believe the pther 1 would work out either, but I did need both of the apologies to provide me with some closure. And it is true, after being hurt people do put up their guards, and the more you hurt, the higher up it goes until you either almost miss that special one or do miss them. Wednesday, March 29th 2006 at 9:46AM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hi Tiara, appreciate the comments and I concur with You about both parties involved. There are innocent people that are hurt. There are people where both made mistakes. Common sense needs to be applied and when does the shame on You part come into play. I know for me self analysis worked best and let God do the rest. Pain and hurt for most causes forcefields to be put up and when right there in the middle of it, one can be so close as to be blinded, like being to close to the fire and the glare is too great. Appreciate the comments Tiara. By the way I amen that statement that "No One Is Perfect" which implies the need for God to cross the inherent physical gaps with the spiritual and there is a parameter that we must fit in. A parameter like differences of opinion fits, but things such as abuse and cheating and not taking care of responsibilities, excessive lying etc. goes outside of those parameters. My mind is not clicking right now to properly voice what I am trying to say, still early for me. Hopefully I clarify enough or someone here can clarify for me. Wednesday, March 29th 2006 at 10:22AM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Ms. Kalynne, You are only in "HighSchool"??? Wow, I would have thought a mature Young Lady with what You are bold enough to comment on and add. The wisdom of babes(does not mean You are a baby). One thing I was stating in my responses to my 2 relationships from HighSchool is that Love is Love and not too young. New Born babies Love. You clearly show feelings that are no different from senior citizens I have counseled that say the same. Wow. ~the more you hurt, the higher up it goes until you either almost miss that special one or do miss them~ That is such a deep paradigm in itself and one that is a solution for a cure of heartache for those who will claim and receive that. All knowledge comes from God, not trying to over do it here, but what You state there, You need to remember that quote. That is Yours. Many people have old sayings that they have said from long ago. That sums up my reply to Ms. Avia's question. And that is on both sides, the one who hurts and the one who is hurt. You know You have a GBook sign coming, friendship offer and Prayer room invite coming, Lol! You also show wisdom in handeling pain that I did not have/know at You age and I did not know what the word closure was until a few years ago. But each generation is more advanced than the preceding generation. Even a person a year or few years younger than You is more advanced if properly fed, if negatively fed as well. Great You are honest because the 1st step towards any cure is admittance. Wow, in HighSchool and I want children? Lol! I think people that are older tend to overlook, ignore etc. That adolescents(respectfully)are more mature in many various ways and of course according to the person than people give credit for. Thus the more importance for Churches. Families etc. to do their parts. This explains one aspect about so many teenagers having babies, they get ignored or overlooked but hormones and feelings are raging which are all natural and remember God gave those hormones and feelings. LilSis, be great for You to start a blog or dialogue on Teen Feelings or what You would title that. Just suggestion. Many teens where peer pressure is clearly the dominating factor need to learn to dialogue in a spiritual intelligent manner that is not based on just the physical if You feel me. It comes to my mind how the world, music, media, t.v., etc. has influence to move what is natural and from God inot other various routes..... Pleasure to make Your acquaintance LilSis and don't be a stranger to blogs. You clearly hold Your own. My applause, proud of You and keep that great mind You obviously have. I can say so much more to everyones statements, opinions, wisdom, etc. here. Wednesday, March 29th 2006 at 10:42AM

Tiara J Grambling State University class of 2004 thanks will, and you have said enough. I also agree with what is said. hope all is well and that people take what is said and us it in everyday life. Wednesday, March 29th 2006 at 8:08PM

Kalynne Etheridge Huston-Tillotson University class of 2010 Thank you for those kind words and words of encouragement. I think that is something every child, and every person for that matter, needs to hear. Just a few nice words can go a long way and keep people on the right track. I agree that young people know more and are more mature than we are given credit for, and I have God to thank for all the wisdom and knowledge I have aquired already and the ability to catch on quick and pick up new things easily. Thanks again for your kind words and the advice you left me on my blog. God bless you, and have a wonderful and blessed day. Thursday, March 30th 2006 at 9:46AM

B. Dwight Foster, B.A., MS-MANAGEMENT North Carolina Central University class of 2003 I would like to see a sequel of this where the guys comunicates his new awareness by stating how on each of the points raised he plans to have an action plan for implementing his newly perceived introspection. Dwight Thursday, March 30th 2006 at 9:51AM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hey Tiara, appreciate all Your input Sis. Thursday, March 30th 2006 at 2:35PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hey Kalynne, I know You will continue to be the bright Young Lady that You are. Great to meet Your acquaintance and please feel free to add Your input anytime on blogs. Also I look most forward to blogs that You write. Take care LilSis! Thursday, March 30th 2006 at 2:37PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hey Dwight, awesome concept. You thought of it 1st and I think this would be an awesome thing to do, no matter what the number may participate. Man You have me on my toes as well which is a good thing. It is a common theorem to write Your Goals down and implement them. Thanx for that valuable input Bro. Thursday, March 30th 2006 at 2:40PM

LaJada Robinson University of Arkansas at Pine Bluff class of 2003 I would like to say THANK YOU. Continue to be the GOD FEARING man that you are. God Bless! Thursday, March 30th 2006 at 4:36PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hi Lajada, appreciate humbly the kindness, support and encouragement that has always been inherent in our Great Black Women. We as Black Men, never are without that need. Those Men that forget that, naive, blind, try to, SUFFER... Friday, March 31st 2006 at 2:29PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hi Lenea: I appreciate the share of Your personal Testimony which I know is not easy and many people choose not to do. There is a clear process in Forgiving and to be forgiven. I have had to be on both ends of this process. If You read of those Biblical Patriarchs and Matriarchs, for many it was not easy, some taking years. Many like Joseph forgave all after full repayment was made. What do I mean, how did Joseph forgive all and went through soo much if You recall but states towards the end of Genesis and in his later years (Something LIke 40) after the birth of his 1st born son, stating, "Though has caused me to forget" and further heaing took place after the birth of his 2nd son. Both were named as praise to God for make up of past. That is a whole paradigm in itself. The greatest usually did the most wrong, Paul saved more Christians than any earth bound Man ever, but he had the most killed, men, women and children who went through horrible afflictions that I have thought to blog on. Remember Paul even held the coat of a Man that was so perfect that the Heavens opened up to receive him. That was Stephen who was the 1st noted Biblical Martyr. Imagine the gruesomeness of a person killed by being hit with rocks in vital areas to kill him. And Paul named Saul at the time helf their coats, watched and was even more energized to get more Christians. God had to change not only him, but even his very name. Paul had to die for that cause to. Sin forgiven in many ways still has to run its course. Unfortunately many do not realize, one sin can go on for generations. This many do not see as 1 aspect of slavery. And many folk that preach have not picked that up. Now if I in what I know and have just thought of have picked that up, why do not all these so called acclaimed Theologians not? Something to consider why............ What You state is deep and a learning process for me as well as for all men that will claim and receive as well as for Women that really want to let go of the pain. 1st step to any cure is admittance and if one really wants to be let go, they can but not by selves. Out of all the counseling I know and have used with people, I could not heal myself over my last ex. I had to ask God and that is where I came up with my motto when her mother implied in an email, that she wanted back in, "WHAT GOD GAVE BACK TO THE DEVIL, I AIN'T TRYING TO GO BACK AND GET". There is much significance in the scripture of the devil being cast out and bring 7 more back after being lonely in the wilderness. They always try to come back with more can't refuse good things and then when one goes back, worse than ever before but God vlames the person in those cases, "Be Ye Not Deceived". People can change, people are truly sorry, but it takes more than just "I'm Sorry". What I write here is over the course of 10 yrs ago. No everyone does not have to take that long, but with me as well as many there are deep things that takes time, processes, trial and error, backsliding etc. Also as a Baby, we have a process to go through before walking and then we still fall. But we learn how to watch before taking steps. What I put out here and in a book as this came to me last night is an extra check and balance for me. A Help Meet is our checks and balances. Also I have learned and mean to blog on the title "Clear Out Your Enemies". In other words the Israelites failed to clear out their enemies in the Promise Land. I know that for me, I see many comment on etc; continued affiliations with Ex's. Once married or in a relationship, that should not be so. If You know a gossip, slanderer, playboys, playgirls etc............... A married Man should not always hang with bachelors, You are influenced to do what they do, the bible talks of communication corrupting good morals. I can go all day on this Sis. Enough for now, but I love the dialogue and we can continue. It is a Blessing from the father of Lights where there is no variation or shadow of turning... Those who want bad enough... I want bad enough to blast and tell on myself to close the door of generational curses behind me as the seed my Cousin Minister back home suggested years ago when I was talking about people being wrong. I am "Determined". Anyway.................... Appreciate You Sis! Friday, March 31st 2006 at 2:53PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Reshonda, Appreciate the time and comments. Again You are still angry and males and females have heard a thousand times, just that You here from only the female perspective according to You presently. Also I don't think a highschool student can write quit like that with the same reaping what was sown experience. Also to liken this poem by a brutha does that not negate and show non-significance for him and I do not recall him stating he hurt anyone. We as Men hear women state we are unsympathetic and when a brutha tries there are always a few who scorn him and belittle which only helps to drive a percentage of those few to not try. Some women are cold presently due to what? Are they cold because they have been wronged one time or has it been a series? The Bible in Proverbs 3:27-28 states to give credit to where it is due..... Peace and Luv Sis Monday, April 3rd 2006 at 2:56PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Reshonda, Appreciate the time and comments. Thank You for Your honesty and how You feel. Something like if a dog bite You and that happened multiple times, someone would have to be out of their mind for me not to be wary of their dog. I have been there where You are at, no I am not You or in Your shoes, nor am I a Woman. I can say that pain is universal but specific to the person. For me in time I had to move on if I wanted truly what I want. Its a process but I know You will make it through it Sis. A highschool student did answer here and what I believe is that love is love. Just because 1,000's say this and that and this is true does not mean there are those who have asked forgivance and are forgiven by God and are sincerely sincere. But I feel You in the empathy that I can for You Sis, I have felt this way before. I wish You complete recovery Sis, for when not, it can poison what is out there for You. I did that. Peace and Luv Sis Tuesday, April 4th 2006 at 1:59PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hey whats up Jay, appreciate the time and comments. I know You mean well and are coming from an honor aspect for men. So am I from different perspectives. I have done past blogs on "Good Black Men" and no comments from Black Brutha's came from what I recall. Just look back through my blogs and I present all the sides in a series Bro, quite a few sistahs and I have clashed over issues between Men and Women, again never saw You before. We all live in the same world and all points as long as meant for positive are beneficial. The sistah You deal with, is meant for You etc., well You never know how she has been hurt and the Bible does speak of a lack of knowledge. You take care Bro and appreciate the dialogue. It has value and I relate to where You are coming from and have stated similar. Tuesday, April 4th 2006 at 2:03PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hey Reshonda, appreciate and many Blessings to you as well. William Thursday, April 13th 2006 at 9:40AM

Will Moss Founder & CEO at HBCU CONNECT, LLC Keep up the good stuff man! Monday, October 31st 2011 at 3:04AM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hey Moss appreciate humbly Bro. Hope all is well for you, family and crew. Just received this email alert. It took me a minute to figure out new replies appear at the top instead of the bottom. Keep up the great work you and others are doing. God Bless Monday, October 31st 2011 at 2:38PM

WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III Florida A&M University class of 1995 Hi Candice, wow this has been so long ago, March 2006??? I just received an email from this post and logged on. I had honestly forgotten about this blog, but the purpose in my heart towards doing my part in this world for people, women and youth continues. Appreciate reply, even though though from soo long ago. Hope all is well for you and keep up the great work. Great to see that you continually progress, grow and mature as a young woman forward. Pleasure to still know your acquaintance. God Bless Sincerest, William :) Monday, October 31st 2011 at 2:41PM

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