Its 4am and I cannot sleep .. I got someone on my mind real hard .. And its been like this for a minute .. So I decided to make a dedication post .. Everyone can come here and dedicate anything theyd like to someone special .. Dont have to say any names .. Just maybe somethin u never got a chance to say or always wanted to say but never had the courage.. They might not hear it or read it but at least u got it off ur chest which is somethin that I really need to do right now ..
Dear Prince
You are wonderful in more ways than one .. There is not a day that goes by that I am not thinking of u .. But I have to let u go now .. I dont know how or when but it must be soon .. Just know that I will never do the things she did to u .. Cuz I love u .. I wanna hurt u so much without hurting you at all .. I wanna think of u without u crossing my mind .. I wanna apologize without sayin Im sorry .. I wanna talk to u without saying one word .. And every time my phone rings I hope that its u .. I hope that one day I can pick up my ringing phone and ur beautiful name will appear .. Yes .. Its very unlikely .. But everyone has dreams right? .. And I hope one night ur dreaming of me .. Wake up missing me .. And call .. I await you .. I Love You My Prince
Im sleepy .. **** .. But I meant that damnit! .. I think? .. But just because I feel this way at this moment has nothing to do with the next .. Cuz come tomorrow .. I might be like who and the HELL wrote this bull .. Im moody and my feelings change like Jlo change **** so what shoot me :arrow:
I guess I'll join in on the fun....
Since I know He wont read this.....
Dear Anthony......
How long has it been since we've been friends?? About a good 7 years. And I love you sooooooo much. Its hard to believe how we stayed so close..No we weren't the type of friends that go out and kick it..or stay on the phone to the wee hours of the mornings..But when we did talk it was so much love and understanding as well as honestly there..
I never told you how sometimes i wanted our friendship to progress into something more then what it was. But the selfish side of me wouldnt let that happen in fear of loosing something great that we already had. I dont know if u realize that I did care for u in that way..or that i still do. Even when we use to sit at lunch and u'd eat that nasty **** dorito's w/cheese and meat..and have that ****all over your face..I still thought u were the cutest guy in the school..even when u really needed some carmex..I still wanted to give u a thousand kisses...
Thankyou for listening to me..not judging me and being a asshole and me not talking to you for a whole week.......I missed you like crazy :roll: . The fact that you always shared your conquests with other girls always kept me away...but you always let me know who was your number 1 friend...Whenever i got **** at u...you'd always say " Tiphani..who loves u like i do??" ..*sighs*
Im so glad that we shared our jr high and highschool..and now we are going to the same college. I can't wait to see you...and i love u
Tiphani.
Ookkkkkkkkkk *walks out*
I will have known you now for about four years...
Would have...if we were still as tight as we were before...
It's crazy...'cause I have definitely had my share of fall-outs with once-close friends...
Most of the fall-outs...stayed that way...
But for some strange reason...your situation is different...
You know why we fell out...why things were never the same after I just couldn't take anymore...why we didn't talk for SUCH a long time...even after you tried to get in contact with me...and act like everything was still cool...when it wasn't cool with me just yet...
But believe it or not...maan...I still find myself missing you.....and I don't know why, but even find myself comparing all guys I meet to you....
I always expect the friendships or general relationships I have with otha brothas I meet to be identical to the one that you and I had...or even better...and while many have resembled ours....none have been the same...none...
I wanna say I miss you so much because you left a lasting impression when there was no room for anyone else to leave the impression...your impression took up all of the space, lol...
And how we met was craaazy, man....if one thing would've been even SLIGHTLY different....I might've never known you at all...I wonder how things would be now in my life and with different people if I would have never met you....hmm, pretty interesting to think about...
I had close guy friends before you & I met, but nowhere near as close as you were....when we were close, you were the one and ONLY close male FRIEND of mine....and although there were other guys who came into my life at the same time as you...you were the only one who seemed to have long-term potential...
Man, it's just so crazy....you had the strongest pride in the world...as did I...which I suppose, in the end, was our downfall...in addition to certain specific incidents, of course....
You and I still keep in contact now...but only once in a blue moon...as you've clearly moved on with your life, as tough as you may be choosin' to live it and unhappy you seem to be...and I have moved on with mine....
The last time we talked...it was almost like old times....a laid-back conversation...easygoing...no tension....I was feelin' it....& you said you were too...
But that was just one conversation...us being friendly...but us trying to truthfully go back to how it really used to be...would probably end up being rather awkward...
But yep, yep, yep - you are the ONE person from my past who I feel there was no closure....feels like we're not done with each other...
And whether it be by choice...by force...or by coincidence...I know that there is still so much left between us...good and bad...
Don't know if it'll unravel within the next month...or maybe the next decade...but I know & feel that whatever it is is gonna see itself out before each of us leave up out of this lifetime.....
Dear Maria,
Man I kno sometimes I did you grimey and stuff but I never stopped caring about u. I really do care about you even though it might not seem that way. I kno I can be a real **** sometimes but im sorry. Words cant really express how I feel about u. I wish you all the best with your new relationship. I kno you gonna be a great girl to him just like you were a great girlfriend to me.
Much luv,
Ya Boo Rod.....
*RUNS*
Its 4am and I cannot sleep .. I got someone on my mind real hard .. And its been like this for a minute .. So I decided to make a dedication post .. Everyone can come here and dedicate anything theyd like to someone special .. Dont have to say any names .. Just maybe somethin u never got a chance to say or always wanted to say but never had the courage.. They might not hear it or read it but at least u got it off ur chest which is somethin that I really need to do right now ..
Dear Prince
You are wonderful in more ways than one .. There is not a day that goes by that I am not thinking of u .. But I have to let u go now .. I dont know how or when but it must be soon .. Just know that I will never do the things she did to u .. Cuz I love u .. I wanna hurt u so much without hurting you at all .. I wanna think of u without u crossing my mind .. I wanna apologize without sayin Im sorry .. I wanna talk to u without saying one word .. And every time my phone rings I hope that its u .. I hope that one day I can pick up my ringing phone and ur beautiful name will appear .. Yes .. Its very unlikely .. But everyone has dreams right? .. And I hope one night ur dreaming of me .. Wake up missing me .. And call .. I await you .. I Love You My Prince
Im sleepy .. **** .. But I meant that damnit! .. I think? .. But just because I feel this way at this moment has nothing to do with the next .. Cuz come tomorrow .. I might be like who and the HELL wrote this bull .. Im moody and my feelings change like Jlo change **** so what shoot me :arrow:
I ain't mad @ cha, chica...
I definitely sympathize with u...
& i go thru the same types of episodes...when it's just a flood of emotions...about different people...& it's hard 2 hold back....
it was brave for you to publicize that...& admit it all to yourself...
good luck with however you end up pursuing that...
Yes girl Im sure u know what I mean .. I remember when u was havin ya lil battle with ur emotions a minute ago .. I can rely on u when we talkin about the episodes lol
Yea I dont know what Im gon do .. Well yes I do .. Sit back and wait for what I said in my post .. Not literally sit back and do nothing or not talk to anyone else but just hope I guess lol .. But Im DEFINITELY NOT callin him .. Thats for sure :arrow:
ha, i feel u...
love...or whateva u wanna call it....@ our age...is a trip...everybody always got somethin' different goin' on...& that's when things start 2 clash..
& yea, i used 2 not be so open w/ my emotions & feelings, good or bad.....mostly it was about pride...and stubbornness....but i'm workin' on it....
Now thats something I dont do .. I dont talk to people about ANYTHING When I feel down and out I dont feel like there is ONE SINGLE PERSON in the Whole world who I can call at anytime .. anyplace .. talk to about anything .. and just count on .. I dont feel like I got that ride or die friend thats why Im constantly questioning my friendships .. I dont feel like anybody has my back but me therefore I generally keep everything to myself .. But good luck on opening up ..
Its 4am and I cannot sleep .. I got someone on my mind real hard .. And its been like this for a minute .. So I decided to make a dedication post .. Everyone can come here and dedicate anything theyd like to someone special .. Dont have to say any names .. Just maybe somethin u never got a chance to say or always wanted to say but never had the courage.. They might not hear it or read it but at least u got it off ur chest which is somethin that I really need to do right now ..
Dear Prince
You are wonderful in more ways than one .. There is not a day that goes by that I am not thinking of u .. But I have to let u go now .. I dont know how or when but it must be soon .. Just know that I will never do the things she did to u .. Cuz I love u .. I wanna hurt u so much without hurting you at all .. I wanna think of u without u crossing my mind .. I wanna apologize without sayin Im sorry .. I wanna talk to u without saying one word .. And every time my phone rings I hope that its u .. I hope that one day I can pick up my ringing phone and ur beautiful name will appear .. Yes .. Its very unlikely .. But everyone has dreams right? .. And I hope one night ur dreaming of me .. Wake up missing me .. And call .. I await you .. I Love You My Prince
Im sleepy .. **** .. But I meant that damnit! .. I think? .. But just because I feel this way at this moment has nothing to do with the next .. Cuz come tomorrow .. I might be like who and the HELL wrote this bull .. Im moody and my feelings change like Jlo change **** so what shoot me :arrow:
I ain't mad @ cha, chica...
I definitely sympathize with u...
& i go thru the same types of episodes...when it's just a flood of emotions...about different people...& it's hard 2 hold back....
it was brave for you to publicize that...& admit it all to yourself...
good luck with however you end up pursuing that...
Yes girl Im sure u know what I mean .. I remember when u was havin ya lil battle with ur emotions a minute ago .. I can rely on u when we talkin about the episodes lol
Yea I dont know what Im gon do .. Well yes I do .. Sit back and wait for what I said in my post .. Not literally sit back and do nothing or not talk to anyone else but just hope I guess lol .. But Im DEFINITELY NOT callin him .. Thats for sure :arrow:
ha, i feel u...
love...or whateva u wanna call it....@ our age...is a trip...everybody always got somethin' different goin' on...& that's when things start 2 clash..
& yea, i used 2 not be so open w/ my emotions & feelings, good or bad.....mostly it was about pride...and stubbornness....but i'm workin' on it....
Now thats something I dont do .. I dont talk to people about ANYTHING When I feel down and out I dont feel like there is ONE SINGLE PERSON in the Whole world who I can call at anytime .. anyplace .. talk to about anything .. and just count on .. I dont feel like I got that ride or die friend thats why Im constantly questioning my friendships .. I dont feel like anybody has my back but me therefore I generally keep everything to myself .. But good luck on opening up ..
i definitely feel u, girl...
my situation is a lil different from u 'cause there r a FEW (& i do mean "FEW") people that i really can depend on...and tell some stuff too...
now i am REEALLY selective with who knows most about me...there is only one person in this world who knows just about every lil' piece of dirt involvin' me....someone not related 2 me...but OBviously he's one of my truly closest friends....my homegurlz don't even know everything he knows....
& my homegurls hate that i'm so secretive...or picky w/ which secrets i give up....but i'm jus the type of person that doesn't want the whole world knowin' my bizness....and it ain't that i don't trust 'em...another key factor is he's like the only one who doesn't judge me or give unnecessary 2 centz, y'know (& this ain't tha same dude i was speakin' 2 in that previous post..this is someone i'm still so coo with)....
u jus' gotta find 'em...& hold onto 'em...& i know it ain't easy at all...'cause u don't know who u can trust & who u can't....& who really listens....
but when i was sayin' that about openin' up...i didn't necessarily mean 2 my friends...i meant 2 the people the "openin' up" concerns....i used 2 not be able 2 do that...or i'd be really vague about it....but now i try ta jus let it all out...or most...less stress on my part....
*sigh*...my emotional **** got a COUPLE....here goes numero uno
Dear Corey,
I love you but Im not IN love with you. Granted you were my world, and I treated you as such, your not mature enough to be with me. I cannot nor will I ever stoop so low as to be controlled by you. You have alot of growin up to do an its a shame you let something as good as this...go. But as the sayin goes..."You neva kno how good something is until its gone". Im not goin to cuss you out this time, im beyond that, I jus pray that you get some help and learn how to love unconditionally....as I did you...goodbye booter :arrow:
BBL wit 2,3,4, & 5 :lol:
Now I gotta figure out who Ima dedicatr a post too...
