before i start i gotta say ^^^^d@mn 45 minutes, my jaw woulda started to hurt.
1. first and foremost i am an alcoholic
2. i got a thing for feet (as long as they aint busted **** feet)
3. i really hate white people and i live in a white neighborhood
4. i used to date this **** **** chick jus because she had money and bought me stuff (how shallow is that), and when she caught on i got dumped, and for some reason, my feelins were hurt.
5. between the ages of 13-16 i lied about not being a virgin (but what guy didnt)
6. i think I've told you people too much.
:arrow: i'm a freak but i've never let the lines be crossed so i culd ever be called a hoe, however I do enjoy giving head.
:arrow: i take cheerleading very serious
:arrow: I put up fronts to hide sadness or embarrassment
:arrow: I need some1 to love me
:arrow: i'd rather give than receive
:arrow: i've never had a "**** buddy"
:arrow: I dont like to ride
:arrow: Got it inna dressing room
:arrow: I prefer for girls to do tha lickin' more than guys
:arrow: Im 16....(turnin 17 October 16th....i just rounded up...hey its may....lol half way there)
YEAH RIGHT!
*picking jaw of the floor* you are only 2 days older than me? smmfh...wow I'ma go get some herbal tea or something, 'cause that one jes threw me off... :arrow: *she sixteen like me, wow*... :arrow:
:arrow: Im 16....(turnin 17 October 16th....i just rounded up...hey its may....lol half way there)
YEAH RIGHT!
*picking jaw of the floor* you are only 2 days older than me? smmfh...wow I'ma go get some herbal tea or something, 'cause that one jes threw me off... :arrow: *she sixteen like me, wow*... :arrow:
word!!?? thats whats up tho fam!!! lol....at least i aint the only one :wink:
Rodz Confessions
1. I used to be insecure as hell about myself because I was neglected by my mom when I was younger. (which leads to #2)
2. I never told anyone this except my best friends. But my mother is a recovering **** and **** addict. **** is a hell of a drug trust me I kno.
3. I need attention to survive cuz if i dont get it i slip into a state of depression.
4. I contemplated **** when I was little.
5. I think I was in love with my ex girlfriend.....hell i still might be
6. I used to get picked on when I was lil cuz my mom was on welfare and I had like the worst clothes (thus leading to my insecurites)
7. I would rather be alone than in groups but I run wit groups cuz they give me the attention I need.
8. I recently found out that I would have had older brothers or sisters but my mom had them aborted or miscarried.
9. I hate my father from the depths of my soul but yet I wish he was here.
Damn im bout to cry I needed to get that off my chest.....
Rodz Confessions
1. I used to be insecure as hell about myself because I was neglected by my mom when I was younger. (which leads to #2)
2. I never told anyone this except my best friends. But my mother is a recovering **** and **** addict. **** is a hell of a drug trust me I kno.
3. I need attention to survive cuz if i dont get it i slip into a state of depression.
4. I contemplated **** when I was little.
5. I think I was in love with my ex girlfriend.....hell i still might be
6. I used to get picked on when I was lil cuz my mom was on welfare and I had like the worst clothes (thus leading to my insecurites)
7. I would rather be alone than in groups but I run wit groups cuz they give me the attention I need.
8. I recently found out that I would have had older brothers or sisters but my mom had them aborted or miscarried.
9. I hate my father from the depths of my soul but yet I wish he was here.
Damn im bout to cry I needed to get that off my chest.....
Rodz Confessions
1. I used to be insecure as hell about myself because I was neglected by my mom when I was younger. (which leads to #2)
2. I never told anyone this except my best friends. But my mother is a recovering **** and **** addict. **** is a hell of a drug trust me I kno.
3. I need attention to survive cuz if i dont get it i slip into a state of depression.
4. I contemplated **** when I was little.
5. I think I was in love with my ex girlfriend.....hell i still might be
6. I used to get picked on when I was lil cuz my mom was on welfare and I had like the worst clothes (thus leading to my insecurites)
7. I would rather be alone than in groups but I run wit groups cuz they give me the attention I need.
8. I recently found out that I would have had older brothers or sisters but my mom had them aborted or miscarried.
9. I hate my father from the depths of my soul but yet I wish he was here.
Damn im bout to cry I needed to get that off my chest.....
damn . . .you make me want to give you a hug
Me too... :cry: Your a very strong person Rod. I admire that, cause I dont know If I coulda dealt with it.
I'm only telling you people this because the chances of me actually meeting with most of you are nil... :roll: Anyway, here it goes:
#1 I've recently been diagnosed with depression. However I refuse to take the medication, and I haven't been to threapy in a while, so its going untreated at the moment.
#2 In lieu of #1, I've had self esteem problems since I was eight years old. (Despite what most people say, I still don't myself to be at all attractive)
#3 I've mastubated for someone on my webcam before.
#4 Lately I've been feenin like hell, but I've been able keep myself under control so far... :roll: I guess maybe I just need some attention or somethin.
Ummm... I guess that's it.
1. I'm not entirely innocent...I'll hardly ever admit it, so treasure this moment
2. There is a guy...who attends my school (A&T)...& who I started liking in the 10th grade...& most of those intense feelings have gone away...but it still feels like I'll always feel somethin' for him...& the worse thing about it...he's one of the biggest @$$holes I've eva met in life :x...he's actually one of the main reasons i'm so sarcastic now...mostly when it comez 2 dudez
3. I'm not all sunshine & smiley faces...a lot of times, that is just a front for what's really goin' on inside
4. & i'm much less secure...than i let on...
5. Between the 11th grade and...mostly my freshman year in college...I'd done enough very regretable things...things I wish I could take back....but just chalked 'em off to life's lessons...& have tried to better myself as a result...
6. every once in a blue moon...i'll cry...for no apparent reason...but...there's always a reason...or..reasons, should i say...no matter what i tell u
7. many people think they know me...& have me all or mostly figured out....but i'm willin' to put money on really no one knowin' even 50% of the real me
8. when it seems like i'm askin a lot of questions...it isn't about me being nosy, i promise...i just seriously and genuinely...want to know more about you...or whoever...or whatever...we're talkin about...
9. throughout my life, my main physical insecurities have been my tummy...& my height...i always wanted to be thinner...and a lil shorter...
10. i still love & appreciate all complexions on Black men...but all of my friends & fam have noticed...& i guess i'll admit that...since i've gotten 2 college, the trend of brothas who have caught my eye have just about all been lightskinned....
11. my....more-specific confessions...shall remain with me...like someone before me said, ya can't tell everything....sorry, ya'll....
I'm only telling you people this because the chances of me actually meeting with most of you are nil... :roll: Anyway, here it goes:
#1 I've recently been diagnosed with depression. However I refuse to take the medication, and I haven't been to threapy in a while, so its going untreated at the moment.
#2 In lieu of #1, I've had self esteem problems since I was eight years old. (Despite what most people say, I still don't myself to be at all attractive)
#3 I've mastubated for someone on my webcam before.
#4 Lately I've been feenin like hell, but I've been able keep myself under control so far... :roll: I guess maybe I just need some attention or somethin.
Ummm... I guess that's it.
Hey...that's not safe. Take it from someone who knows. If you don't do anything else..please take tha medication. I'va had numerous cousins and aunts and uncles sent to Parkwood Mental Hospital because they refused to take meds and they went overboard. YOu could actually cause damage to yourself and others and you'll miss out on lots of life. YOu don't know me and I don't know you but I'd hate to see a black man down...take tha MEDs...PLEASE
#4 Lately I've been feenin like hell, but I've been able keep myself under control so far... :roll: I guess maybe I just need some attention or somethin.
Ummm... I guess that's it.
2. There is a guy...who attends my school (A&T)...& who I started liking in the 10th grade...& most of those intense feelings have gone away...but it still feels like I'll always feel somethin' for him...& the worse thing about it...he's one of the biggest @$$holes I've eva met in life :x...he's actually one of the main reasons i'm so sarcastic now...mostly when it comez 2 dudez
3. I'm not all sunshine & smiley faces...a lot of times, that is just a front for what's really goin' on inside
4. & i'm much less secure...than i let on...
5. Between the 11th grade and...mostly my freshman year in college...I'd done enough very regretable things...things I wish I could take back....but just chalked 'em off to life's lessons...& have tried to better myself as a result...
6. every once in a blue moon...i'll cry...for no apparent reason...but...there's always a reason...or..reasons, should i say...no matter what i tell u
7. many people think they know me...& have me all or mostly figured out....but i'm willin' to put money on really no one knowin' even 50% of the real me
8. when it seems like i'm askin a lot of questions...it isn't about me being nosy, i promise...i just seriously and genuinely...want to know more about you...or whoever...or whatever...we're talkin about...
9. throughout my life, my main physical insecurities have been my tummy...& my height...i always wanted to be thinner...and a lil shorter...
10. i still love & appreciate all complexions on Black men...but all of my friends & fam have noticed...& i guess i'll admit that...since i've gotten 2 college, the trend of brothas who have caught my eye have just about all been lightskinned....
11. my....more-specific confessions...shall remain with me...like someone before me said, ya can't tell everything....sorry, ya'll....
