Its 4am and I cannot sleep .. I got someone on my mind real hard .. And its been like this for a minute .. So I decided to make a dedication post .. Everyone can come here and dedicate anything theyd like to someone special .. Dont have to say any names .. Just maybe somethin u never got a chance to say or always wanted to say but never had the courage.. They might not hear it or read it but at least u got it off ur chest which is somethin that I really need to do right now ..
Dear Prince
You are wonderful in more ways than one .. There is not a day that goes by that I am not thinking of u .. But I have to let u go now .. I dont know how or when but it must be soon .. Just know that I will never do the things she did to u .. Cuz I love u .. I wanna hurt u so much without hurting you at all .. I wanna think of u without u crossing my mind .. I wanna apologize without sayin Im sorry .. I wanna talk to u without saying one word .. And every time my phone rings I hope that its u .. I hope that one day I can pick up my ringing phone and ur beautiful name will appear .. Yes .. Its very unlikely .. But everyone has dreams right? .. And I hope one night ur dreaming of me .. Wake up missing me .. And call .. I await you .. I Love You My Prince
Im sleepy .. **** .. But I meant that damnit! .. I think? .. But just because I feel this way at this moment has nothing to do with the next .. Cuz come tomorrow .. I might be like who and the HELL wrote this bull .. Im moody and my feelings change like Jlo change **** so what shoot me :arrow:
A mellow blend of several charachteristics that apparently
produce a strong Black man
when blended right
A focused brotha who thinks
(and knows) he's tight
The one to talk to when your situation needs some clarity
Conversation wit him brightens
the bleakest of a January
Peer into his soul and you
will find a man benevolent
Wonder if heaven sent the earth an angel out of charity. . .
A crazy cat who's yet to cease to
fill me with hilarity
Personified therapy
that's what this boy named Larry be
if u knew how much you be on my mind, you'd know why i always get my bootleg cd's from you :lol:
your friend,
Tori
A mellow blend of several charachteristics that apparently
produce a strong Black man
when blended right
A focused brotha who thinks
(and knows) he's tight
The one to talk to when your situation needs some clarity
Conversation wit him brightens
the bleakest of a January
Peer into his soul and you
will find a man benevolent
Wonder if heaven sent the earth an angel out of charity. . .
A crazy cat who's yet to cease to
fill me with hilarity
Personified therapy
that's what this boy named Larry be
if u knew how much you be on my mind, you'd know why i always get my bootleg cd's from you :lol:
your friend,
Tori
awwwwwwwwwww...
c we got a lot more softiez up here than is let on....
Its 4am and I cannot sleep .. I got someone on my mind real hard .. And its been like this for a minute .. So I decided to make a dedication post .. Everyone can come here and dedicate anything theyd like to someone special .. Dont have to say any names .. Just maybe somethin u never got a chance to say or always wanted to say but never had the courage.. They might not hear it or read it but at least u got it off ur chest which is somethin that I really need to do right now ..
Dear Prince
You are wonderful in more ways than one .. There is not a day that goes by that I am not thinking of u .. But I have to let u go now .. I dont know how or when but it must be soon .. Just know that I will never do the things she did to u .. Cuz I love u .. I wanna hurt u so much without hurting you at all .. I wanna think of u without u crossing my mind .. I wanna apologize without sayin Im sorry .. I wanna talk to u without saying one word .. And every time my phone rings I hope that its u .. I hope that one day I can pick up my ringing phone and ur beautiful name will appear .. Yes .. Its very unlikely .. But everyone has dreams right? .. And I hope one night ur dreaming of me .. Wake up missing me .. And call .. I await you .. I Love You My Prince
Im sleepy .. **** .. But I meant that damnit! .. I think? .. But just because I feel this way at this moment has nothing to do with the next .. Cuz come tomorrow .. I might be like who and the HELL wrote this bull .. Im moody and my feelings change like Jlo change **** so what shoot me :arrow:
I ain't mad @ cha, chica...
I definitely sympathize with u...
& i go thru the same types of episodes...when it's just a flood of emotions...about different people...& it's hard 2 hold back....
it was brave for you to publicize that...& admit it all to yourself...
good luck with however you end up pursuing that...
Yes girl Im sure u know what I mean .. I remember when u was havin ya lil battle with ur emotions a minute ago .. I can rely on u when we talkin about the episodes lol
Yea I dont know what Im gon do .. Well yes I do .. Sit back and wait for what I said in my post .. Not literally sit back and do nothing or not talk to anyone else but just hope I guess lol .. But Im DEFINITELY NOT callin him .. Thats for sure :arrow:
ha, i feel u...
love...or whateva u wanna call it....@ our age...is a trip...everybody always got somethin' different goin' on...& that's when things start 2 clash..
& yea, i used 2 not be so open w/ my emotions & feelings, good or bad.....mostly it was about pride...and stubbornness....but i'm workin' on it....
Now thats something I dont do .. I dont talk to people about ANYTHING When I feel down and out I dont feel like there is ONE SINGLE PERSON in the Whole world who I can call at anytime .. anyplace .. talk to about anything .. and just count on .. I dont feel like I got that ride or die friend thats why Im constantly questioning my friendships .. I dont feel like anybody has my back but me therefore I generally keep everything to myself .. But good luck on opening up ..
i definitely feel u, girl...
my situation is a lil different from u 'cause there r a FEW (& i do mean "FEW") people that i really can depend on...and tell some stuff too...
now i am REEALLY selective with who knows most about me...there is only one person in this world who knows just about every lil' piece of dirt involvin' me....someone not related 2 me...but OBviously he's one of my truly closest friends....my homegurlz don't even know everything he knows....
& my homegurls hate that i'm so secretive...or picky w/ which secrets i give up....but i'm jus the type of person that doesn't want the whole world knowin' my bizness....and it ain't that i don't trust 'em...another key factor is he's like the only one who doesn't judge me or give unnecessary 2 centz, y'know (& this ain't tha same dude i was speakin' 2 in that previous post..this is someone i'm still so coo with)....
u jus' gotta find 'em...& hold onto 'em...& i know it ain't easy at all...'cause u don't know who u can trust & who u can't....& who really listens....
but when i was sayin' that about openin' up...i didn't necessarily mean 2 my friends...i meant 2 the people the "openin' up" concerns....i used 2 not be able 2 do that...or i'd be really vague about it....but now i try ta jus let it all out...or most...less stress on my part....
Girl I get the ur too secretive lecture ALL the time .. And I tell them like I tell everyone else who comes at me with that MESS .. Im not too secretive .. Ur just TOO damn nosey! .. Its good to have a friend like that tho .. Nice to have someone to call on ..I can only call on my granny lol ..
Its 4am and I cannot sleep .. I got someone on my mind real hard .. And its been like this for a minute .. So I decided to make a dedication post .. Everyone can come here and dedicate anything theyd like to someone special .. Dont have to say any names .. Just maybe somethin u never got a chance to say or always wanted to say but never had the courage.. They might not hear it or read it but at least u got it off ur chest which is somethin that I really need to do right now ..
Dear Prince
You are wonderful in more ways than one .. There is not a day that goes by that I am not thinking of u .. But I have to let u go now .. I dont know how or when but it must be soon .. Just know that I will never do the things she did to u .. Cuz I love u .. I wanna hurt u so much without hurting you at all .. I wanna think of u without u crossing my mind .. I wanna apologize without sayin Im sorry .. I wanna talk to u without saying one word .. And every time my phone rings I hope that its u .. I hope that one day I can pick up my ringing phone and ur beautiful name will appear .. Yes .. Its very unlikely .. But everyone has dreams right? .. And I hope one night ur dreaming of me .. Wake up missing me .. And call .. I await you .. I Love You My Prince
Im sleepy .. **** .. But I meant that damnit! .. I think? .. But just because I feel this way at this moment has nothing to do with the next .. Cuz come tomorrow .. I might be like who and the HELL wrote this bull .. Im moody and my feelings change like Jlo change **** so what shoot me :arrow:
I ain't mad @ cha, chica...
I definitely sympathize with u...
& i go thru the same types of episodes...when it's just a flood of emotions...about different people...& it's hard 2 hold back....
it was brave for you to publicize that...& admit it all to yourself...
good luck with however you end up pursuing that...
Yes girl Im sure u know what I mean .. I remember when u was havin ya lil battle with ur emotions a minute ago .. I can rely on u when we talkin about the episodes lol
Yea I dont know what Im gon do .. Well yes I do .. Sit back and wait for what I said in my post .. Not literally sit back and do nothing or not talk to anyone else but just hope I guess lol .. But Im DEFINITELY NOT callin him .. Thats for sure :arrow:
ha, i feel u...
love...or whateva u wanna call it....@ our age...is a trip...everybody always got somethin' different goin' on...& that's when things start 2 clash..
& yea, i used 2 not be so open w/ my emotions & feelings, good or bad.....mostly it was about pride...and stubbornness....but i'm workin' on it....
Now thats something I dont do .. I dont talk to people about ANYTHING When I feel down and out I dont feel like there is ONE SINGLE PERSON in the Whole world who I can call at anytime .. anyplace .. talk to about anything .. and just count on .. I dont feel like I got that ride or die friend thats why Im constantly questioning my friendships .. I dont feel like anybody has my back but me therefore I generally keep everything to myself .. But good luck on opening up ..
i definitely feel u, girl...
my situation is a lil different from u 'cause there r a FEW (& i do mean "FEW") people that i really can depend on...and tell some stuff too...
now i am REEALLY selective with who knows most about me...there is only one person in this world who knows just about every lil' piece of dirt involvin' me....someone not related 2 me...but OBviously he's one of my truly closest friends....my homegurlz don't even know everything he knows....
& my homegurls hate that i'm so secretive...or picky w/ which secrets i give up....but i'm jus the type of person that doesn't want the whole world knowin' my bizness....and it ain't that i don't trust 'em...another key factor is he's like the only one who doesn't judge me or give unnecessary 2 centz, y'know (& this ain't tha same dude i was speakin' 2 in that previous post..this is someone i'm still so coo with)....
u jus' gotta find 'em...& hold onto 'em...& i know it ain't easy at all...'cause u don't know who u can trust & who u can't....& who really listens....
but when i was sayin' that about openin' up...i didn't necessarily mean 2 my friends...i meant 2 the people the "openin' up" concerns....i used 2 not be able 2 do that...or i'd be really vague about it....but now i try ta jus let it all out...or most...less stress on my part....
Girl I get the ur too secretive lecture ALL the time .. And I tell them like I tell everyone else who comes at me with that MESS .. Im not too secretive .. Ur just TOO damn nosey! .. Its good to have a friend like that tho .. Nice to have someone to call on ..I can only call on my granny lol ..
Dam ****,
I’m still in a state of shock that I will never see yo big-headed **** again. I swear you were on my list of people to see when I made it back home. Doesn’t look like that’s gonna happen. Between all the wrestling, play fighting and name calling I don’t think I ever got to say how much I love you. Not just because you’re my cousin and I have to but because you’re a wonderful person, and you’re head isn’t that big…yeah it is. I hate that after 19 year I never once told you I loved you, and now it’s too late. I hate that your moms has to deal with burying one of her babies, I hate that your little sisters will miss you growing up, I hate that when you died your big brother broke down and cried, and the other contemplated ending his own life. Not to be selfish cuz this isn’t about me, but I hate that your death broke my heart and made me cry, and I hate that you’re always on my mind. You’re always there, a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, a thought in the back of my head…he’s gone and for what? But, above all this I hate I hate I hate that your son will have to grow up without his father. It **** that he only got to enjoy you for a month and you didn’t really get the chance to be the wonderful daddy I know that you would have been. But, as they say God had a bigger and better plan for you so as much as I hate it, I cant complain cuz I’ll bet you’re in a way better place. If I haven’t already said it enough, I love, I love you, I love you little cousin, I miss you and I will never ever ever ever forget you.
Love you for ever and ever Amen
From me to ARB
On a seriuos note:
It will be 10 months tommorow since u left, time goes by so quickly. There isn't a day that I don't think about you. You left so quickly, with me barely getting a chance to say goodbye. Its been a hard ten months, so many things have happened in my life. But I'm still surviving. But some days when you are real heavy on my mind, I just breakdown, like I'm lost and I don't know what to do or where to go. You were my best friend, the person who I could talk to about anything. If I ever needed someone to talk to, u were always there. You always had my back, in whatever. You also provided me with so much, I owe to you my kindness, my independence, my strength, bascically everything that has brought me thus far. What keeps me going is that I know you are not suffering anymore, and that you are wathcing me from above, protecting me just like a guardian angel. I must not give up even though it's so hard sometimes, cause I know you would not want that for me. I just wanted to let u know that I miss you, and I love u so much, and I hope that I will make you proud,
To Mom, R.I.P.
L.R.E.A.M (Love Rules Everything Around ME).....I need a picture to look at when I type this so...
My little beige monkey boy....
John,
When you left the first time, I didn't understand. I bascially hated you becasue I didn't understand why you were leaving what you'd never said you'd leave, why you were saying what you'd never leave your lips, and why you were hurting who you'd say you'd never hurt. Time heals all wounds, but I felt like it would take an eternity for me to feel whole agian, without you in my life. While we were apart, you did you and I did me. But eventually you realized that all those girls out there (especailly that RA girl ) weren't me and you eventually made your way back to me I realized now that God gave us that time apart for a reason. And it didn't dawn on me until Sunday when you pulled me close after not seeing me for so long, that the second time around is so much better than the first. You are my life and I am your rib. Kismet ya know? Even though we are more on and off agian than Whitney and Bobby, we know we belong to each other. You are my best freind, my lover, my confidant, my spiritual partner, my rock, my destiny.I have never been with someone who pleases me in all aspects of my life. You love me so soft that it feels rough. I love you so much Johnathan. Remember that even whether we are together or apart, I am here for you. I will always be here for you, because I never left....Love
Your LaLa Bonita
Ashley
Too bad you'll never seeeeee this...cuz your internet it dowwn! :evil:
Now I gotta figure out who Ima dedicatr a post too...
My little beige monkey boy....
John,
